Forgive me

I have denied it again and again,

that I have done wrong

I have caused you pain while you were right all along

my words and my actions I cannot justify,

All the sorrow I put you through,

all the tears you have cried,

I'm sorry may not be enough to pick up the broken pieces,

I'm sorry may not be enough to cure these mental diseases I have placed upon you

I rejected the love and care you selflessly gave me,

I pushed you away just so I could be trapped inside of this box,

isolated behind this wall,

because I thought that what you had to offer was not enough to set me free

forgive me for the damage I have caused

and for my selfish ways

You're such a good person and I am just someone who ruined your days

how carless was I with your heart

I grabbed it, displeased with the amount of love that was meant for me

I forcefully wanted to stretch it out and squeeze out all

of the love I could get

I was in need

of your acceptance,

your attention,

I was scared that sooner or later you would leave.

I'm so sorry for everything I did and everything I have done

I ask for your forgiveness 

I submit to my defeat 

you have won.

Maybe we can see eye to eye again,

laugh, smile,

move on from all of this pain,

forgive me for the hardships,

The harm and the hurt I made you feel.

I love you, I care about you

and hopefully one day

my desire of a new beginning,

would be real.