Pain I Fear

Living in constant pain
Seems to be my curse.
I really don't think
It could get any worse.

I don't know of any one,
Who has suffered as much as me.
Why the hell can't this pain,
Just let me be?

I'm slowly but surely
Just withering away.
O please don't tell me this pain,
Is here for a constant
And permanent stay!

The more I'm awake
And completely sober,
The more of this pain
Is taking me over!

Losing myself and
Losing my mind,
For true pain relief,
Is extremely hard to find.

I can't seem to find anything
To keep this pain under control.
It's completly consuming me,
And eventually it will
Have my soul!

I don't want that to happen,
Which is why I'm still fighting.
I'll try anything to help me,
Including this crazy poetry writing.

So as you can see,
Constant pain is what I truly fear,
I want to live,
Which is why I am still here.