Terrified Emotion

I look at me so terrified,

Trembling yet so justified.

In a moment when I thought you cried.

Doesn’t matter that I held up and tried.

I knew I was on losing ground,

And I knew I was just loosing mind.

And when you left me with just a wink

The thousand Suns did burn in me.

Annihilating me into million pieces,

Of ignorant anonymous as I ever was.

The amorphous me, now flies among the smoke.

Despise of living through such hard beginnings,

It turns out that I was just another no one.

A clown which made you laugh out of nothing.

But you didn’t realize the clowns have pain too.

But now the clown has run out of his mascara.

And down he walks in a street which goes nowhere.

Just when I realized that I was re-building

This collapse is pulling everything inside me.

Tiny specks of happiness flashes before the eyes

Before getting sucked in the gravity of this damage.

This uniformity of chaos in me feels so strange.

It’s so real that I can almost touch it.

I know you’re looking,

For a rhythm in the verses.

But hey I’ve lost my rhymes,

And the manner of my lines.

I am just left with this broken face,

With some frozen emotions.

And a road to travel all alone,

And it starts right here.

Remember I told you, I’ve been left,

With some pretty big shoes, to fill in.

I’m still gonna wear them and pretend,

That my toes have become a bit bigger.

And walk those thousand lonely miles

Where the horizons blends into the unknown.

I will walk myself there and disappear.

Reviews

[Lavi]

There are so many individual lines I just want to print out and hang on my wall; they're so meaningful with just a few words.
"The thousand Suns did burn in me. -
The amorphous me, now flies among the smoke."
I love the way you continued sentences in this stanza after two descriptive lines, and I could just feel myself as a part of this writing. Like I am with you, reliving this experience, feeling the emotions second-hand and wondering just what they feel like first hand - soul-wreckingly.

I never liked clowns. My reasons were only cemented by the homicide attacks dressed as clowns but before, I thought they were men dressed in masks to hide the pain they were projecting to create the laughter in others... that, and circuses just plain ol' creep me out |_(^_^)_/

[Abhishek Izy]

This one made him very very happy. To take someone along with me for a journey through my writes. Isn't it what we artists live for. That's a greatest compliment.

The fear of clown is very common especially in West world and its very understandable. Its almost a genre in itself. Unlike in West, we barely have clown here or the circuses. So I guess we are rather bored with their faces. That was one reason I was plainly bored while watching IT movie, while it scared rest of the West World. Though I loved the clown faced dude in "The Devil Rejects' and it thrilled me, for the pure joy of artistry involved in it.

[Lavi]

An acquired taste. I imagine it didn't help how I grew up reading stories or listening to horror shows with clowns. Granted, I;m not a scream-at-the-sight of clowns scared - more like keep a healthy distance and have a weapon in-hand fear. For bme, the only good clowns are the ones distracting the bulls in rodeos. I went to one once awhile ago...not really my theme, but I remembered that much ;)

[Perdition]

definitely heading somewhere...quite a few decent and original lines but some images here are just spent such as the sad clown...but you're headed in the right direction so keep at it and find that unique voice...good luck and thanks for the read.

[Abhishek Izy]

Thank you for your insight and review. I'll surely take away much learning from it. You have been kind

[DIVYA]

A sad poem but also one that speaks of self-discovery and self-reliance. A lot emotion felt in the lines Abhishek. Keep writing!

[Abhishek Izy]

Thank you so much for your kind words Divya! Its encouraging to have a fellow artist speak of one's write

[DIVYA]

Indeed Abhishek. It is a pleasure for every writer to be understood and appreciated. Thank you for sharing your thoughts.

[Abhishek Izy]

That’s sweet 😊😊

[Rye]

Deep and intriguing. I enjoyed this write

[Abhishek Izy]

I’m glad you liked it Ryanna!! Thank you for your encouraging words 😊