My Meds

I think I messed up my meds

I took too much

I feel so messed up inside

Voices they scream

They keep clawing at me from the inside

I can feel myself bleeding

My head feels like it's about to split open

The tears don’t want to stop

How many drugs do I take to forget you

Took my last breath

Just play with my heart

Uh oh

Play with my heart

I think I messed up my meds again

This is a suffocating feeling

Pin me to the ceiling

Dying feels kinda feels good

Sedate me

Just some shallow dreams

Uh oh

I think I messed up my meds

I want to leave me

Fragile thoughts

Full of doubts

No conversation

Just a couple of bottles of pills

I've tried to play it cool

I've tried to cover it up

I've tried to talk about it

I messed up it easy

Uh oh

I messed up my meds again

I told you I'm sorry

I tried picking up the broken pieces

I feel the pain

Tearing through my skin

Take me apart

I play alive but I'm dead inside

I keep on waiting

Pull me apart

Clawing me from the inside out

I feel myself bleeding

I feel disconnected

Uh oh

I messed up my meds again

I swear I'm okay

Inside I'm being torn apart

I am blind

I'm so f*****g happy all the time

I have gotten so good at telling lies

My friends always calling me for advice

But they don't know I've been crying

I'm running from everything

They scream and claw

I bleed and cry

My meds are messed up again

I took too much

Reviews

[T.S. Ulmus]

That brain candy will mess you up, I guess it works for some people but I decided years ago that I'd rather just be natural crazy than chemically induced crazy. Too much, too little, wrong chemical, it turns out they have no idea what they're doing when they throw random chemicals at you. The repetition was a powerful mechanism in this poem.

[John the Baptist]

The importance of taking medications regularly and correctly is captured graphically in this offering. The repetitious "I messed up my meds again" is an indication the speaker knows something is not right and why. Still, the fact that the meds are being taken at all is good news. I knew many people who became non-compliant deliberately because they believed they were well. They were the ones who ended up getting committed again and again.

[Christine Anne Shaw]

Balance is everything. The right amount of meds is key. Messed up meds lead to confusion and a whole lot of other stuff. You conveyed that well in these lines.

Chris

[Just Kim]

Wow, very awesome. I've forgotten to take my pills before and it's not a good feeling.

[Xpressurself]

Good poem, reader can learn how confused you are , with or without the meds
I could feel you are looking for Blance

[Nomo]

Thank you for your review, I am confused about what to do in my life at this point in time when everything is coming down