Where did it go wrong

Where did it go wrong

A Poem by Nomo

Sitting in a life
wondering where does it end
How can I make it quicker
To see the end
I see the truth of so many things
I use my mind to block them out
I don't want to believe that
I don't want to remember things from my past
Yet they are a part of me now
Maybe it's true my past doesn't define who I am
I left my addiction with the bottle behind
I still don't love me
I don't know how to be whole
I don't love who I am
How can I give myself what I need?
I woke up this morning wishing I was dead
I had these thoughts before
But today scared me
I wished it to be true
My blade is still sitting there waiting for me
My gun under my bed
My second thought "which one to use"
I scared myself this morning
I wished I never had fallen asleep for those last two hours in the night
The nightmares overcame me
All I feel is pain
These tears won't stop falling
I sit in class wondering what am I doing
Where did I go wrong?

© 2021 Nomo


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This poem realistically shows the torment some go thru, blaming themselves for whatever isn't going right. I'm sorry if this poem is autobiographical, sorry that you feel this way so often as to write about it like it's a regular part of life. When I read this, I know there's nothing anyone can say to a person who feels this way. Nothing could convince this narrator that he/she isn't the problem. The only thing that will change this recurring storyline is to find & cultivate self-love, which takes years for someone that feels the way this narrator feels. Fake it until you make it -- that's how I finally found self-love. It felt fake at first, but eventually it develops into the real deal. Self-love -- it's a worthy goal & you'll make it someday. Despite this poem showing a person down on him/herself, I also see a ton of strength & resolve . . . this narrator can do anything he/she sets her mind to do (((HUGS))) Fondly, Margie

Posted 3 Years Ago


2 of 2 people found this review constructive.

sedulous_mind

3 Years Ago

I totally agree with barleygirl. Couldn´t have said it in a better way!

I really fee.. read more
♔ CrownedDevil ☾

2 Years Ago

I too agree with you Barleygirl. All we can do is show our support to help you through this.


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We all feel your pain, and we all want to help you get through this. But only you can fight of the demons that lives among yourself. You have a lot of inner strength within yourself to get through it. You may not believe in yourself but everyone else around you does.

Posted 2 Years Ago


but only you can kill the demon within

Posted 3 Years Ago


Powerful, honest and direct thoughts dear Nomo.
"I left my addiction with the bottle behind
I still don't love me
I don't know how to be whole
I don't love who I am"
The above lines I understood. When I was young. I was foolish and I pay in karma for the bad deeds. With life and new journey. We can learn. We are okay. Just human. Thank you dear friend for sharing the amazing poetry and your thoughts.
Coyote

Posted 3 Years Ago


This poem realistically shows the torment some go thru, blaming themselves for whatever isn't going right. I'm sorry if this poem is autobiographical, sorry that you feel this way so often as to write about it like it's a regular part of life. When I read this, I know there's nothing anyone can say to a person who feels this way. Nothing could convince this narrator that he/she isn't the problem. The only thing that will change this recurring storyline is to find & cultivate self-love, which takes years for someone that feels the way this narrator feels. Fake it until you make it -- that's how I finally found self-love. It felt fake at first, but eventually it develops into the real deal. Self-love -- it's a worthy goal & you'll make it someday. Despite this poem showing a person down on him/herself, I also see a ton of strength & resolve . . . this narrator can do anything he/she sets her mind to do (((HUGS))) Fondly, Margie

Posted 3 Years Ago


2 of 2 people found this review constructive.

sedulous_mind

3 Years Ago

I totally agree with barleygirl. Couldn´t have said it in a better way!

I really fee.. read more
♔ CrownedDevil ☾

2 Years Ago

I too agree with you Barleygirl. All we can do is show our support to help you through this.
Ego ,
Lack of ability to believe.


Posted 3 Years Ago


Oh, sweetie...I shoulda told you what was wrong last night, I'm sorry, my email was closed, and I didn't see you email. Ily Nomo!!! Just a little longer, sweets, that's all you have to withstand...just a little longer...

Lovingly, Nix ❤️❤️❤️

Posted 3 Years Ago


Nix Is Still Typing...

3 Years Ago

I know hun, but we gotta power thru what we gotta power thru if we wanna get to where we're going..... read more
Nomo

3 Years Ago

I know your here always, you my shoulder to cry on and I am yours... always know that I can help in .. read more
Nix Is Still Typing...

3 Years Ago

I know :) Thanks, sweets :)
wow,That was a very thoughtful and emotional write. I really hope you find your happiness because you DO
DESERVE IT.

Posted 3 Years Ago


Nomo

3 Years Ago

I was never into doing plays, tho I love watching them. I can't sing to save my life lol, sometimes .. read more
littlekinglord

3 Years Ago

thank you I just wish I could put a face to the name
Nomo

3 Years Ago

I know how you feel

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