Going Through The Storms

I have not been here and then again I have. I checked in a couple of times, and I know I have review requests and some comments on my work that I have not answered yet. I usually try to do that because I like dialogue, I like the interactions between other writers and myself. But lately I have been down.

It wont last, it never does with me. I have these times when I am having problems with working and money and my life in general and I just sort of isolate myself from others. I also left the Rez again and have been trying to get my own place but right now I am not in my own place and staying with some people I dont really know. Its kind of weird and scary and sometimes I feel like I should just leave. I will write about all these experiences when I get my head straightened out and a little more clear.

Right now I am just doing stream of consciousness type writing to get some thoughts out and not doing a very good job of it. I admit my self esteem is pretty bad and low at the moment. I think I kind of suck right now.  The weather has been stormy as hell and its all I can do to get through the day of rain and wind both outside and inside of my heart and soul.  I am sure I will, just do not know when the monsoons will be over with.

Reviews

[Riding the Rainbow]

Thank you for posting this. Everything that touches our soul, our heart and our life, changes our mood. A stormy day makes me write more about pain and loss. It wakes my hidden pain's side up. Feel better soon...

[OBWhiteHawk]

Yes I agree that can happen, bad weather brings out the bad feelings. Also since we don't want to go outside when its storming we are more likely to be hiding indoors and looking for something to do. Writing is always a great activity. :)

[Emily B]

i always blame my down times on the weather, i know that's only half the problem, don't stay too far away, we need you around here :)

hoping the weather clears up real soon - for both of us

[OBWhiteHawk]

Thank you! I am doing my best to come back and stay back. I appreciate your concern and support. :)