Distance

Distance became the disaster,
A whirlwind of bad decisions became your distraction,
I promised, I’d never let it happen,
But you insisted,
So I let you do it and think you were getting away with it,
You really played a good game,
If I didnt know your motives,
Id think nothing had changed,
But I didnt let those things go unnoticed,
Wrote them down even,
Just know it’s been noted,
Yet you seem so devoted,
Left me hopin,
That you would change,
And just maybe,
Everything could go back from where it came,
A beautiful place,
Full of love and light,
When you use to hold me tight,
All night,
Now I sleep alone,
In a home with a man I can’t even call my own,
This is not love,
This is not life,
This is torture,
And it’s killing me with pride,
And every stride, it takes,
Just another blow to the face,
Leaving me with that awful taste,
Yet I can’t seem to walk away,
So here I sit,
At your fingertips,
Letting the distance settle in,
Hoping and wishing you come near,
Take away that lingering fear, 

That one day you really won’t be here…