My Fault

My Fault

A Poem by Om Nom Ninja Sheep

You know,
I'm not just shy.

I don't talk because I'm scared to.
I'm afraid I'm going to say something wrong.
Afraid to embarrass my family and draw attention.
I don't enjoy people noticing me.
I try to be better so nobody does.
I just want to curl up and disappear.

Constant anxiety,
Overwhelming depression,
Continuously building stress,
Sometimes, I want to speak, but I am stopped by these feelings.

For me, self-loathing is the result.
I just can't help but blame myself for this.
I feel it is my own fault
For what they called "social anxiety."

© 2012 Om Nom Ninja Sheep


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Author's Note

Om Nom Ninja Sheep
This is half of my daily feelings living with social anxiety. I hope people get a better idea of this condition. Thanks for the title, Lina Grey! Thanks for the reviews everyone! c:

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You know pretty much most of poets/writers suffer from social anxiety just that some are brave enough to wear a mask to match the patch of the society. This is something that i too had to encounter and i adore that you managed to put it in this lovely manner. Let your pen echo your voice and keep writing. Simple but lovely thoughts engraved.
About the title, you can call it Slave to Myself or Caged by My Thoughts.

Posted 12 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Om Nom Ninja Sheep

12 Years Ago

I really appreciate the encouraging words, friend. It's hard to have social anxiety in a world that'.. read more



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This was very good. Social anxiety is something everyone deals with. You simply talked about this subject very well. Great job!

Posted 11 Years Ago


Wow, your words are simple yet strong. It really speaks to me. I hate having social anxiety,too. I wish my heart wouldn't start beating so fast when I try... Brilliant work! :-)

Posted 11 Years Ago


Finally, another person who understands! I too have anxiety and I recently found out this year and its been hard

Posted 11 Years Ago


C.C. Marx

11 Years Ago

Ps forgot to say great job!
Om Nom Ninja Sheep

11 Years Ago

Thank you. I'm glad this helped you(if it did).
C.C. Marx

11 Years Ago

it did, inspiration and good to know I'm not alone
This was very good. I could really relate to this, love! The words you chose were very precise, and made it very easily relatable. You seem to have a real knack for turning your thoughts into truly beautiful words.
:)

Posted 12 Years Ago


Om Nom Ninja Sheep

12 Years Ago

Thank you~! :3
devon

12 Years Ago

You're welcome!
Oh, this is such a great poem. When I was younger I was more like this. I've gotten over it though with my best friend's help and now I'm so much more confident!

Posted 12 Years Ago


amazing. I dont think i have social anxiety but take off the last line and this is how i am feeling to a f*****g T in my relationship lately :( thank you for sharing


Posted 12 Years Ago


Good write...sometimes I feel the same way....

Posted 12 Years Ago


Anxiety and social anxiety run in my family. My aunt can only have a few people in a room with her. I know how you feel but you need to push past it. You will find some amazing friends who will support you. I have trouble making friends to, and get anxiety attack at school sometimes. But my friends know the sighns and stay with me. If you ever need someone to talk to, feel free to message me.

Posted 12 Years Ago


Awwh, having "social anxiety" isn't your fault at all. Sometimes I get totally embarrassed to talk to someone too, since I'm scared of drawing attention and I hate for people to stare or notice me. I could see how you'd get stressed out over this. But you know life's too short to care what other people may or may not think about you. Go ahead, act silly, draw attention, and stand out. Being unique and getting everyone's attention will help make your "social anxiety" go away. A great title along with an amazing poem. Keep writing :))

Ashley Rivers--Dream BIG and you'll win BIG:)

Posted 12 Years Ago


I work as a social worker with young people who have these problems.
You got it exactly right, fine poem

Posted 12 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.


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