I am a Monster

A sad and dark litle story , inspired by the depths of my insanity

I see the life fading from her eyes as I hold her in my arms . The only one I could ever call friend , now noting more than a dead wait in my arms . I don't know which is the heaviest burden , Her lifeless body in my weak arms or knowing it is my fault . I am after all the only one to blame . She only ever wanted to help .I never should have let her . I never should have made friends . I never thought I was capable of hurting someone ,not to mention killing them .

What am I ?