A LOVE OF MY OWN....

A love of my own was written on a very bad day for me. It was the morning after, I received a visit from my dead fiancé in a dream. After 16 years of grieving, he asked me to move on. ~ Paedams

Once upon a time I had a love of my own
Flesh of my flesh and bone of my bone.
God saw best and took him away,
Sometimes it's hard as hell to make it day to day.

Since his passing,
I have just been grasping.
Grasping for peace, joy, and no pain,
All I come up with, is this branched chain.
A chain that holds my heart captive in another space and time,
I'm just empty, without rythmn nor ryhme.

When I lay down at night....I can see his smile,
Then my heart aches and tells me, it's only for a while.
While I try to find sleep, grief finds me
Then I hear a voice say, Is this what you seek.

I lost the love of my own,
Flesh of my flesh, bone of my bone
OH, how my heart needs a new home!

So, yes, Dear Lord, bless me with another love...
Someone to love, kiss and hug.
Dear God if it's meant to be,
I am opened, so please seek.
Give me another chance to love again,
To see the new face of my husband, lover and friend.

~Paedams

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