Circling to SleepA Poem by PamiAnde"...a heart-wrenching kindness"I wake to dragging footsteps; he circles the dinette, clicks ’round the kitchen, walks the hall, our office, in and out of my bathroom without drinking from the toilet. My husband and I now leave the back door open; I hear him drop from kitchen vinyl to garage floor, his push and flap out the doggy door, his push and flap back in, not stopping to look at the moon... more clicking, then padding, more dragging over carpet, room by room he wanders till I rise. In the hallway, we meet, his frail form backlit by the green glow from the computer; he doesn’t startle in the dim light, though his eyes are crusted, and he no longer hears, I scratch his head behind his ears. He follows me to the bathroom, and while I pee, I scratch some more, bury my face in the back of his neck, smell the sourness of his aged breath, the sweetness of his lingering life, Please, I pray, take leave in your sleep. Don’t wait; don’t make me decide. He raises his head and backs a step, not wanting to be scratched into forever... I wipe and flush and rise to straddle his wobbly body, leading him by blue collar, down the hall and to our room to the twin sheeted mattress we’ve placed low at the foot of our king-sized bed. This time, he doesn’t trip; climbs the inches up on his own, circles once, circles twice, a slow three times as I slide back under the covers, he disappears with a “plop” in the dark, and licks himself to quiet sleep with the same gentleness I’ll need to lick my wounds, no matter how he dies.
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3 Reviews Added on September 10, 2020 Last Updated on September 10, 2020 Tags: pets, dogs, euthanasia, kindness, love, growing old, grief AuthorPamiAndeBEND, ORAboutMy poetry, prose, short stories, creative nonfiction, and something I call Bedtime Stories for Big Kids will likely appeal mostly to new-agey women. I've been published (many years ago) in Chocolate f.. more..Writing
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