Only Love

There comes a time in ones life

when the transient being has to 

take time to understand the realm 

and nature from which love is created.

I lost touch with that realm,

There is something I must say

to the Angel for whatever reason, 

we are sisters in love... 

My adoration for what I believe 

in no way 

lessens my admiration for you,

nor were my desires a dark thing

to hurt, whatever that is worth.

It is because of that love,  

that my life became a shadow,

a moment that stretched into eternity.

Falseness has never been a cloak

I cared to wear, but wear it I did,

reasons thrust upon me against my will 

this reality, and they will believe 

what they will, 

but God knows my heart is filled 

and my smile contrite.

I can never return to the bosom of the

family unit, because I still feel

what I can not help but feel,

any more or less than anyone who loves,

does that mean I am evil or unkind,

how can any form of love be evil? 

It was not my original intention to 

seize or take away

only to find peace with love and my

self recriminations without fascade.

should the eyes of God ever look upon me,

with the same affections, I would hope

that you would know that I would not

love the angels less, but neither would

I hesitate. 

But do not be threatened or disheartened

by this truth, nor find hurtful pain,

for there is no personal malice 

hidden within these walls, only love.

It is true, I was the first to love,

the first of many, the heart wants 

what it will, with no volitions,

but of that the mind is the arbiter

time the healer, faith the constructer

of beauty, and love the unconditional

dream.

Reviews

[An owl on the moon]

Time can both devastate and heal... and what a journey you have been on with both... Your title seemed so appropriate for a week filled with thoughts of love... yes, the unconditional dream. Beautifully bittersweet.

[Eve]

yeah, thanks Craig, good to see you honey. :)

[Distant horizons]

If llove is within you, it will always be there for you. Each person has choices to make every day oftheir lives and i have yet to meet anyone with 100% success. Some of us travel alone, with time to contemplate and understand ourselves better, where others choose the security of the pack. Who is to say which is right or wrong.
A beautifully open and honest write

[Eve]

Thank you very much JustLorry, yeah, I used to believe that was enough, but now after all that's happened I'm wondering if it was a wise decision to be so open and honest. I appreciate your review very much JL, I'll think on it.

[Distant horizons]

:-)

[jacob erin-cilberto]

i think this could be about loving whom we love no matter the consequence. No matter if it separates us from other we love because they frown upon that love.

we have to love ourselves first, and trust what we do is right for us, and whom we choose is right for us.

this is confessional in its delivery, and really grabs the mind and heart of the reader.

we get caught up thinking of our own choices, our own loves...and realizing that what other people think just can't matter.

jacob

[Eve]

thank you for your insightful review, it is much of that but it was also a choice to go on alone, to face the consequences, we love who we love, the heart wants what it wants, if it can't have it, it has to find a new path away where it doesn't hurt others, but yes we have to be true to ourselves first and do what we think is best for us regardless of what others might feel is wrong for us, we make our own mistakes and we have to live with them.

[David Scott]

A poem of self love that is healing and forgiving.
Did you mean for "lessons" to be lessens?
I felt the isolation in this poem. The desire to be something that you are not mixed with the acceptance of the fact that it is OK to be who you are. Even better than OK actually. Love is the highest road, but it goes through some of the most trecherous passages.
Love, loved, and will still be loving this poem for years to come!
Be well.

[Eve]

I did! Thank you so much for pointing that out, oil on the brain i guess, too much baking

[Adam Whitworth]

good one

[linear]

I once Loved, but never again, for though I gave was all in vain, and I simply did not enjoy the PAIN

But I did enjoy reading your poetic expressions :O)

[Eve]

I know what you mean, I've been there too, and I thought the same things, until I did. Thank you so much for reading my poetry today.

[Tara]

sigh....Sometimes there are families who after some healing , open their arms again to long lost shadows...There is love and there is love...and "only" never applies. TRUE love, unconditional love always wants only the best for their beloved. Problem with us humans is our own needs always seem to get in the way. I am going to shut up and do what I do best. (( )) (( )). The big kind where I knock the breath out of you for a minute...:) :)

[Eve]

no comment is always best in these situations, lol, thanks for those big breath knockers, I always love'em :) Thank you, I am soooo glad to see that you are feeling well enough now to use the computer (laptop?) Don't over do! Give yourself time to rest please :)

[zainul]

Wonderful love story.
Amazing write.

[Eve]

Thank you so much!

[zainul]

You are welcome

[Circe]

this felt really touching to me, it's your unique voice and the subject that somehow amplifies the emotional, the confessional corners of the heart, this reads like a letter, heartfelt and dusted with the personal truth of one's findings.. and sometimes it's sad, disheartening, like the shadow you say, and not being able to return to the warmth of the family unit, that really scraped a nerve in me.... we can only attempt to find peace each time and a way to go forward in the endeavour for love. all I can say is thank you for writing this with an open and honest heart.

[Eve]

Thank you so much beautiful lady, your writes move me as well! I am so glad to see that you have returned. :) yeah, "friends are family that you choose for yourself", I don't know whos quote that is but it's a great one. :)