Useless

Why do I have this hole inside my heart
Like black caves underground it’s flooded with toxic water

I’m tired of wishing for something Beautiful to be found there
Like gem stones are buried under the layers off grimy rock

Who am I kidding ?
I know the emptiness is nothing but an illusion filled void
A never ending expansion of decay and erosion
And still I try to fill it with pretty words and a soft mouth

But it’s useless
Because I’m useless
And everything I try to pretend I am
Is useless

I think I need to accept the poison inside me and embrace the secretion of internal torment
Because inside I am nothing but stagnant water and shaky foundations