Now She Can Cry

Thanksgiving come and gone
no one else seemed to notice the empty chair
she was tempted to put a place setting there
but she didn't

And when she felt the tears welling
within her weary blue eyes
she bit her tongue

Gifts bought, wrapped placed beneath
the tree
those Christmas lights seemed to mock her
those that burned brightly but suddenly faded
just like...

She wanted to smash that tree
stomp those gifts. rip those twinkling lights
from those branches
scream at the top of her lungs
but she didn't

And when she felt those tears welt
she squeezed her eyes so tightly closed
everything stayed black for a moment when she opened them -
bit her tongue till she tasted blood -
silent

Fireworks, champagne, a toast to the old
a toast to the new
10-9-8-7-6-5-4-3-2-1
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
smiling faces, kisses all around

She wanted to, could have dampened those fireworks
salted the champagne with her pent up tears
tore those kisses from lips with her nails
but she didn't

New Years Day -
Christmas turkey gone
only a carcass
one lone piece of soggy pumpkin pie
tree down
people resting

She sits in the bedroom that smells so familiar
still after all this time
from the velvet box,
takes out the lock of hair

Touches gently
smells, feels, holds to her heart
memories wash over her weary body

She lays her head on the pillow
where she last lay
tears flow like rapids
unsung screams burn her throat
tears soak the pillow

Now ...she can cry

Author's Note

First holidays without loved ones .....
I wish you all a Happy New Year , will be around in awhile to read ...
Peace

Reviews

[Magdelena]

OH this was so sad. I so remember a time when I too felt like this. many a time went by while I sat by myself within a crowd and felt so alone. tears fell when the darkness came, and this described exactly what it felt like.. Your imagery was perfection, your words became mine.. Bravo!

Mags xx

[Gary H]

I was thinking after reading this, should it be called 'Can she cry now?' as each stanza finishes as you wait for her to cry but she doesn't - until the end. Yet with the title you have given the ending away. Just a thought. It's nice to read your poems after popping in for a quick catch up. Hard hitting imagery and great work.

[The Archangel Gabriel]

Are you back, Chlo? Have not heard from you in forever. Miss you! You are so the bomb!

[avant security guard]

colorful
sad
heavy
sorry
hope this year is better
find something new!

[anonymousprankt]

i would like to say one word for this poem in SANSKRIT : "ADBHUTT" which does mean the great combination of "Incredible" + "Mesmeriing"+ "Heart Touching" + "Brilliant" + ...... Seriously awesome!!!! : I honour

[Pollie Esther]

This resonates for me.. I know how this feels.

[Amber Marie]

That was the perfect show of what goes on inside us when we are so sad and holding it in. The imagery was so simple yet vibrant. I loved it. Truly amazing work, good job. :)

[Princess_of_Shadows]

i thought it was written really good

[Philip Muls]

Strong imagery evoking variety of emotions. Well done.

[terry smith]

Beautiful!!!That is how you write!I don't know of anyone who has lost somebody that wouldn't relate to this!! sometimes the best writing is not seen by the masses...hopefully this will.

[Andrew Rayne]

I apologize so much because of the Swaglord's review. He is a pest we are trying to get rid of. You're piece is amazing, keep at it.