No Hope

People don't understated 

The way I feel

For I am in pain

And need to be healed

For I am depressed

And cannot comprehend

The faults and mistakes

I have committed

For I am cracked in two

And running further from hope

But also love

Because I have faults

And I have hurts

I tried to have love

But it was destroyed

And I was left 

With no hope or comfort 

And now I am once again alone

But also prone

To be drug into another sin 

All because love couldn't win

And save me from all of

My dirty sins...

So now I'm without hope once again

Reviews

[Ookpik]

The world is too big to forever feel alone, I felt that way once. When I was in high-school my parents were divorcing and at that age I felt i could hardly handle the weight. I would go to the bathroom in the middle of class where no one could see the pain I was in. The truth in it though, is that the world is too big to forever feel alone, there are people who care, and want to see you happy. For me it was an ex, and a very specific counselor. At the time I wouldn't tell him much, just enough to keep my chest away from that cracking feeling that sent me to the bathroom, trying to piece myself back together. When I graduated I realized that the past seventeen years of my life, were not going to dictate how I moved forward, I got a job and found a place and believe it or not, was very happy. Those moments of happiness are magic, they are proof that hope and faith are not pointless beliefs, And even though the temptation to see the worst in life, causes us to never forget the things that hurt the most, the power of optimism can over rule that temptation. To this day I struggle to forget the things that hurt and I strive to remember the things that didn't, few and far between as they may seem to be, they exist. Good memories for me, are like nuggets of gold in a stream - hidden at first, laying among the riverbed, but if you work you can find them and than the choice is yours whether you want to sell that gold, or cherish it. Good luck Tori, I know depression is hard, but inner peace is not a myth, you just have to work for it.

[William Liston]

Having no hope is one of the worst feelings that one can endure; it's one thing to feel pain, but it's quite another to feel like that pain will never end, especially when we think it's our own fault. I applaud the brutal honesty of this piece; everything feels true and heart-felt. Remember this: You can rise above anything -- no matter how difficult it may seem. Sometimes, happiness can come when we least expect it. Wish you all the best.

- William Liston

[Tori Jones]

Thank you...

[Lord of mad men]

This is very deep and is greatly worded. Okay so you have sin as have we all me way more them most. But I am ready to be judged I have accepted those sins and every time they cone back to bite me. I don't run I deal with then because I am not alone neither are you. Don't fear your past don't fear the future and don't fear the present. Live for you and no one else you are loved by the world and your in it for a reason or it would of had you gone along time ago. There are no mistakes just choices. No good or bad ones either. You do not need to live in the past. Live in the moment the easy way to live is second by second. You must do what makes you happy and not care. You can deal with the repercussions when you get to them. For noe live to live. Your friend a mad lord

[Hebe]

Our mistakes are sometimes opportunities to change things, it's an opportunity to look back and take on a new challenge.... use all avenues of self improvement .....there are so many to choose from, find one that you relate to..... your writing has emotional power.....so do you !
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[Pete]

I can relate to this feeling. You are a deep thinker and very much in touch with truth and feelings.

[Tori Jones]

Thank you so much, I really appreciate your review...

[The Exiled Wolf]

This piece is so relatable, and I understand fully how it feels when I was dragged to do something that I knew I would hate myself. Being loved is sometimes a distant luxury. Seeking it, and ending up getting harmed and broken even more. Share this burden with the ones who understand, and the pain will be reduced.

[Tori Jones]

Yes, being unloved isn't fun...I hate it, and you're lucky if you have it...It is a very rare thing to come by for some people. Thanks for your review...

[The Exiled Wolf]

It's a greater pain if what people love is only my hood covering up myself...Yea they love the brilliant kind guy that I pretend to be, but no one love me as myself. I'm still finding one...who truly loves me...

[Tori Jones]

Well, I'm sure you're a great guy...My favorite saying is "True beauty begins when you decide to be yourself." Just be yourself, and everyone will still like you, I'm sure of it....

[TheAimlessWanderer]

well written you have a lot of self hate it is sad to see. it is good to write if it heals you keep doing it if drives you down stop that is one of the philosophies i live my life by as soon as writing stops being cathartic i will stop. hating yourself wont make you progress in fact it will just lead you to same mistakes. live so you wont make the mistakes again learn and grow my heart goes out for you crap happens in life and it is not always necessarily directly our fault it may not be the case with you but your only without hope if you believe it keep pushing forward and have hope that things will get better even if it seems impossible if you lost hope there is no point in trying because what is their to look forward to ?

[Tori Jones]

Well, I do hate myself...I do so many things that are wrong, and I can't understand why...The world just makes me feel even worse...If I weren't alive nobody would notice, for I am merely trash...I understand what you are saying, but I just don't see a point to go on if nothing ever turns out right...There isn't anything to really look forward to, unless you count being bullied...Thanks for reviewing and suggesting. I will keep your suggestions in mind...

~Tori

[TheAimlessWanderer]

well you have enough hope to post things so that means your at least curious about what will happen right ? you care enough to vent your making big steps and you don't even know it. bullies will come and go throughout life but the pain they cause will cling all the more if you give it time all forms of violence or pain physical or otherwise will continue to fester and grow ruminating is not going to help you i know this personally the world is not against you yourself and the people who hurt you however are if these can't be resisted or avoided which is most likely the case for you make something you want to look forward to everyday and take comfort in it live your life with you at top priority even if it is only for a little while but it seems it might be something you need. you may say i have no right to tell you such things but you are crying for help and i won't apologize for trying it is your choice to do whatever suits you best and that includes calling this all rubbish and saying that i don't know what your going through because truth be told i can't possibly because i am not you the same can be said for anyone you may not be able to control others but you can choose how you want to react to them and if people are doing horrible things to you it is not your fault don't hate yourself for it just like you said in your poems faults they are just pushing their inadequacies on you live life for you Tori what ever that may be (:

[Tori Jones]

The only thing I am going to say is, you're right...I believe what you say...and thank you for being you...

[Inject Positivity]

I can actually feel a connection with your poem, I know the feelings very well and I can tell you I have witnessed depression in my life... I'm telling don't stop believing, feel the emotions now but keep believing that this will pass, it may take some time but it will, don't give up...

Note : in the fourth line will it be 'further'?

Sincerely
Dhiman

[Inject Positivity]

I'm really sorry frnd, I know how you feel, sending prayers for you...

[Tori Jones]

Oops...I think I deleted something...Oh well, are you a Christian?

[Inject Positivity]

Read my story, "A Christian at heart"...

[Tori Jones]

Oh, ok...I will read it right now...

[Karmee]

I really enjoyed this write, I suffer from depression,
and this hit a cord for me....awesome write

[Tori Jones]

Thank you, I am glad you liked it...

[Jamestown]

Well written and expressed.
Very sad but I'm sure many will relate,
I just hope that these feelings that your
going through, will soon pass.
Thanks for sharing and b-blessed!

[Tori Jones]

Thank you for the kind review, I really appreciate it...