Life

Everyone tells me i'm better than what i have

I see a good guy

It seems like its the wrong time

I just have no love in my heart to give

I like him but i refuse to keep him where he doesn't belong 

That's with me

I'm moving in a direction that's not him

In the meantime

I would be just watching things be taken away from him

That's becomes a mistake on his part

I'm not that strong to carry someone like him

If another woman wants him....

Than he should go

Forget he ever knew me when he does walk away

I'm the opposite of his soon to be 

There's no reason for him to stay with me

I have big dreams that keep climbing

I need to do what makes me happy

I cannot provide reasurrance

When all i care about is reasurrance i need from myself

In the beginning i was vulnerable

I lost someone i did love

At times i wish i had her with me right now

More than any day i spend with him

But we cannot always have what we want

My head moved on...My heart still loves her

Everyone knows i'm not an easy person that loves easily

When i do love...I love hard

When i don't love....i make things complicated for anyone in my path

I sit back and watch....

If he decided to not speak to me....I wouldn't even care enough to fight 

That's what happens when all you care about is what you lost

Everything and everyone isn't a factor there just an X-Factor waiting to happen

When i close my eyes

I think of her

When i wake up...i pray something pushes me away from him

When i look into my heart

She is always with me

When i think with my mind

I don't even bother reaching out to him

This is what happens when there is no complete closure

Someone comes into your life with same baggage you left

It all becomes one big game

This time...

I will be happy to lose

If it would allow me to win later

And Have someone better

Dyanna Pappalardo

Aug 26th, 2011