The Schizoaffective Writer

The Schizoaffective Writer

A Poem by John Putignano

A poem about schizoaffective disorder and what it’s like

a sucking vortex of clips

looped and spinning

gushing across the cerebral terrain


the lights have dimmed, it is bleak here

all around me are the voices of people

some I recognize, others I promise never to face

“you’re better off dead.”

“you’re nothing, a f*****g loser.”

“You’re better off dead.”

suddenly, from within my body grows an immense rush

it circulates throughout every vein

reinforced with the confidence of the Gods

“I cannot be slaughtered, fools!”

or so I maintain

dwindling bank accounts

hypersexual, deviant, s**t, pig

“now lay awake in bed with your shame. You’re filth.”

I’m disappearing into the earth

deep, with the rocks and worms (who will rapidly feed on my carcass)

I’m fatigued, as I think

“Just let me not exist.”


a sucking vortex of clips…

© 2021 John Putignano

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Hello, John! :)
This was an interesting read. What sort of clips do you mean here?

Posted 2 Years Ago

John Putignano

2 Years Ago

Images in your mind. They could be clips of something that happened when you were a kid, something t.. read more
Very effective use of imagery here to present what the schizoaffective diagnosis is like from the inside. We hear the strange schizophrenic voices that seem so real, then experience both the mania and depression of the mood disorder. Schizoaffective Disorder treats its victims with the worst of both worlds.

Posted 2 Years Ago

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Added on July 30, 2021
Last Updated on July 30, 2021
Tags: Depression, Schitzoaffective, bipolar, schizophrenia


John Putignano
John Putignano

Seekonk, MA

*IMPORTANT NOTICE ABOUT CONTENT* My writing tends to be very dark and often includes sensitive subject matter. In many of my stories the narrator is an unsavory character and the tale is written fr.. more..