Light on the Horizon

For too long, 

I have called darkness home.

I named it friend.

I named it caretaker.

I named it lover.

I trusted only this black shade,

shunning out all forms of light.

For it seemed too easy. 

To be loved, to be cared for.

I only truly loved myself.

But even then, I beat myself

to a near-death submission.

I always corrected myself,

fixed myself,

thinking that endless revision

meant perfection.

I only wanted to conform,

to become something others want me to be,

so that I may know some sort of compassion.

I only knew the darkness.

It was like home.

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But then, behold!

I found a bright light, 

walking into my sphere,

coming closer to my heart.

What is this strange thing?

The darkness backs away,

but keeps its hold on me.

The light is warm, more loving,

more caring than the darkness.

It blows away all masks

and reveals my true self.

As it approaches closer,

I, afraid and worried,

I see what it is.

It is a soul.

Your soul.

And it takes a hold of mine.

The darkness is almost gone.

My heart, once called "Remnants,"

is rebuilt in my chest,

taking the name "Amor."

You paid my ears two sweet words,

with the meaning of three behind them.

And finally, I felt something real.

Something so amazing,

it was sublime.

I wanted to keep you,

to hold onto you forever.

But the darkness still held,

relentless on its vice, 

telling me earthly things.

I wanted to hold onto you

for the rest of eternity.

So I told this darkness to leave.

Back, demon!

Your "care" is no longer needed!

Sink back into that which you were spurn!

Your beliefs are now forfeit!

And it was gone.

And I now have you.

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Now our souls are joined.

Maybe again, maybe for the first time.

But either way, I know what you need.

And you know what I need.

And we can both give each other what we need.

In two words, two lives became one.

And I vow to fight for your life.

I will give you the compassion you need,

the care you desire,

the love you never had.

Each kiss shall be out of love.

Each smile shall be out of love.

I've finally found what my heart has been missing.

And I will never leave you.

Your heart is broken,

so I shall care for it.

I shall tell it sweet words of romance.

I do not need to change,

for you tell me I am already perfect.

And you need not change either.

You are already the lover I need.

And I promise to stay with you forever,

even when our corporeal forms fade,

our spirits shall forever be bonded,

and we will forever love each other.

I love you, mia cara.

Sempre ed eternamente.

Author's Note

...I've finally found her...

Reviews

[Sami Khalil]

Thank you for sharing the contrast and your wonderful poem...:)..................