On My Way to Eat Dirt

Acting like no one has eveeeer fucked with my head.  

Acting like I didn't hear all the fucked up things that were said.  

Acting like I've haven't been hurt for all of these years.  

Acting like I haven't gone though this time in a puddle of tears.

Everyone I know know whose been hurt this bad acts so fucked 

They hide from the world like there about to be thunder struck.

It's like they have given up the will to explore and wonder again.

It's like they've been given no choice but to curl up and hope they won't be hit again.

That's why they call me stupid for not putting on a visible shield.

That's why they think I've not been hurt enough to break and kneel.

That's why they tell me I'd learn my lesson in a few years.   

That's why i'll always be the go lucky dumb blond to every person whose near.  

Casuse learning to stay low is worse than having to fight off some tears.

So yes look at me i'm that person whose "Never been hurt".

Yes look at me, i'm on my way to eat more dirt.       

Reviews

[Chris]

I saw you online and came back. You're pretty quiet and submissive.

[Chris Shaw]

You convey your pain well here. I found your words moving. I also felt you have an inner resilience, that regardless of your situation, you have learned to deal with. First of yours I have read.

Chris

[jacob erin-cilberto]

not being able to be ourselves in a relationship, being beaten down....who denies and acts like everything is okay...not an easy rut from which to escape.

this is really moving...and the repetition works so well to drive home the theme.
j.

[Chris]

Sigh... I'm thinking over and over what I could say... but damn I DO understand - trite as such a thing always seems.

one flaw needs repair - there vs they're. To good of work to let that one stay.

[Aurora]

There is an anger that is palpable from this write. The world has fucked with our heads already.