Forbidden Loves and Fish Tails

A unique poem

A weight is in my chest,

I feel less than  my lovers’ compliments suggest,

I don’t even feel second best.

Here I am,

Feeling so weighed down with rabbit heart in my hand,

What I am doing here?,

That I don’t understand.

Unsure, where did this heaviness began?

Unsure about how it got started?

How was this worthless feeling born?

Did it start when Dad departed?

I honestly am clueless to this,

I never signed a blood pact.

I am not a damsel in distress,

But a victim of forbidden loves.

I feel so broken,

So torn,

Between two beings of my once upon a time self.

I am circling the forbidden forest in my white wedding dress,

I guess my Daddy knew best.

A runaway bride on my wedding date.

I am so lost,

And so frightened,

As I search for the Hatter with tears down my face,

He asked ‘’ Now, what is the matter?’’

And as I replied with panted breath,

All I could mutter is;

‘’Death.’’ 

And just like that I ran away and 

searched for the tide ,so I could meet with the sea;

And there are the sirens waiting for me.

 They’re evil is intoxicating,

With they’re beady eyes.

It’s grasp is accelerating,

With they’re death finned lies.

They capture you in they’re talons,

They welcomes you in. 

These are the Sirens,

The Goddesses of sin.

As I regained conciseness.

I started to wonder,

As the poison wore off,

Where was I?

Where am I ?

Where did I go?

About this feeling I’m unsure.

I realized I was in the Garden of Eden,

During the beginning of sin.

I’m lost in the forbidden forest.

Full of untouched poisons.

Guarded by a troll.

Evil: 13579

Me: Zero!

Evil was on a roll.

I don’t know where I am going, 

I don’t know who I am.

But wherever I am going,

I’m going til the end.

Where am I ?

Am I who I once was?

Now I know I am not who I was

And I am not because back then I was kind of a lost cause.

I am now stronger than I have ever been.

I will continue fighting even in the days after forever,

Because life sucks, but the afterlife is better.

Because that is where soul mates meet and are together forever.

Reviews

[quinfinn]

we journey from wonderland to sirens calling and to the garden of eden and i never actually left my kitchen chair. wow, what terrific thought, to travel so many places all within one poem. you have ridden out much angst in this write my dear, well done.

[Soul Fire]

Thank you very much, my friend. I'm glad you could venture on this voyage along with me! aha!

[quinfinn]

i was my extreme pleasure, Raya

[Soul Fire]

:) I'm glad you enjoyed it

[Fallen Angel]

You're absolutely right! lolz It IS a truly unique poem. :3 And I love it!

[Soul Fire]

thank you very much!

[khalid]

very nicely penned..although it has big deal of feelings of depression, the way you have written it made it sound very sweetly..
thank you for it..

[Soul Fire]

you're welcome, thanks so much for the review

[khalid]

my pleasure

[Coyote Poetry]

Love can lead us on a wild journey. The soul mate is the best friend near by. I believe re-evaluate love with age. Less important flesh and passion. People who stay with us for many years are the special people. Need many things to know what we really need. Need luck and someone with the same dreams. Thank you for sharing the excellent poem.
Coyote

[Soul Fire]

You're welcome, glad you enjoyed!

[Owlgirl]

Wow! I love the Alica and Wonderland theme! Great job and very original idea. I love how in the poem it feels like mystical spinnings, like the gears turning in a clock. Amazing write Raya! :)

[Soul Fire]

wow, thanks for the wonderful review! Thank you very much I try so hard to keep my writing entreating. I'm glad you liked it! (:

[Owlgirl]

it was wonderful :)

[Soul Fire]

Thank you very much (: