Depressed

I have cried to many tears

I have cried so many times

I have been so angry

hurt

mad

sad

and in an all out negative mood

but you see I have cried so much I don't remember 

the last time i truly smiled

I don't remember the last time I was truly happy

No-one has done anything to me

people close to me are dying and getting sick all around me

but they didn't do anything

my parents have ignored me recently 

but, I am used to rejection

especially by my peers

I am so used to it it feels like every day life

But, that isn't a good thing

But I have also cried so much that I have no more tears in me

I simply have painful dry agonizing feelings

But do not feel bad for me

really 

I am used to it

Reviews

[red punk]

Sometimes it just feels like I am just masking my pain and I have done it so well I have even tricked myself