Breaking

Knowing your heart is breaking but you can't stop it!

I wish I could stop my heart from breaking
But try as I may
I just can't reach inside...
How do I go past the gates made of bones that are within me?
Or the fence of flesh that is so evenly scarred and worn out??
I just want to reach in and pull it out
Maybe if I can see where the tear is...maybe I can repair it

Maybe I can sow it back together...
Just enough to close it up..to stop the love bleeding out....
Maybe I can find the shreds and fix them
Its my heart but yet I can't reach it...
Just to see where I made the mistake
That has led me down this path again
At which point did I make the investment that has contributed to my heart 
shattering?

Its my own heart but yet I am powerless
How do I resuscitate it if I can't reach it?
Its breaking and I can't stop it!
Drowning in its own pain and yet I can't rescue it!
Its my own, yet am helpless.. 
I can feel it...but I can't stop
Its come to a point now...that I've just accepted 
That although its my heart, maybe it has a mind of its own!