I close my eyes...and feel

Often, when we lose a loved one, we rue about things that we had not done for them...or about those that they might not have done with us...This one is about that feeling of being left inadequately ... with a desperate longing for something

 

The golden sands slither through my fingers

like the beads of time that you and I lost…

The light fragrant breeze caresses my hair

that lies open…waiting for your fingers to run through…

The surf hitting the rocks on which I sit

tickle my toes…

 

I feel your rough fingers fondling my silky hair

Your chapped lips tickling the sensuous spots behind my neck

Your strong chest through which your heart beat as if thunder

Your sturdy arms holding me…ever so tenderly

Your brown toes teasing my soft ones so

 

I close my eyes…and feel

Your essence…in the sands, the breeze, the white surf…

In my breath……

An essence that lives and shall always remain to haunt me…

 

Couldn’t you have crushed me…even once?

I longed for it so…and yet your touch was always gentle

I wanted to feel your manhood…

You were always almost feminine in your touch…

I wanted to be the devil with you…

You made me out to be an angel…

 

I close my eyes…and see

You, calm and composed…

In your best suit…

Not like I had wanted to see you…

In Adam’s clothes…on my bed…in the sheets by my side…

 

I close my eyes…and you fade away

I am left alone, with all the sand, surf, and wind……

Biding my wait forever…in an unending wait…

Reviews

[Nicholas Hallows]

This poem really drew me in through the images and feelings. It captures perfectly a sense of longing. Nice write. NH

[Tai Chi Italy]

Our minds can take us to the most wonderful places, that is the glory of the poet, as yours did when you lay on this beach, remembering and feeling his essence of presence. I am so sorry if you lost him to the almighty or even just lost him to this ethereal world of ours, whichever way hurts, but you seem to have embodied his spirit in this lovely poem of love, loss and longing...I am not sure about the end line...the two waits kind of knock it off tilt for me, how about 'binding my heart forever....in an unending wait? A beautifully relaxing read though, with the sea and the surf and the sand. Just a thought from Tai

[Candle in the wind]

This is mind blowing believe me!Believe how do you crysatlise such longing and passion.I love this.
Biding my wait forever�in an unending wait�I can feel the ache.