Spring to winter

Its a edited and you can say a version which has a language with kinda standadrd words. It was edited by a frnd and I am proud to say that they made it far better than I could ever write it.

When did I learn the secret of life?
Was it when my theory blew up in my face?
That i'm all alone when I can't see you?

Or was it when I finally knew
Monsters aren't hidden under the bed
Locked away tight in a figment of imagination.
But mingling in our world?
Right along side with us?

Or was it when
Somebody told me
Sun and moon dont
Walk with us

Or when I saw Dad hiding gifts
Under the Christmas tree?

When did my life go from purity to a harsh winter?
In spring time I lived my life
But like all good things in life, it left me
And life swapped seasons,
Leaving me with the bitterness of winter,
Longing for the warmth of ignorance.

Or did it flee when I found out that people lie.
They lie for fun, for pain, for revenge or gain?
That people don't truly love you
They only use you,

Or the time
The precious penny,
Turned worthless,
Even a hundred dollars could no longer satisfy the greed that grows within us.

Is it when I came to know
The more older you turn
The lesser you are loved
That people lose the things they care about the most?

Maybe it left me too
As I started to grow older
It started loving me lesser
Maybe
Life spun, leaving me lost on the roller coaster of life.
If they say life comes with its ups and downs,
Then why, why does the world seem to forget the ups as you grow older?
Until the only thing left is a ride hurtling into emptiness.

It is when the seasons of my life
Change from spring to winter
And I develop a cold heart
Replacing the other innocent me,
that I ask myself,
Why?

Author's Note

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