failed love

when i met you
i tried to hide
my loneliness in you

i tried to find
who i was

we hit it off
though we were strangers

you,
from back east,
ohio

me,
here,
in california

me,
looking up into the sky,
your blue eyes above me
looking into mine

i got to hold you close
i got to look into you
i got to hear your voice,
words for only me

your long brown hair
your scent,
like a wheat field
near the ocean coast
i lost my loneliness

your smile
your laugh
your kiss,
made mine

i found me,
we had each other
for awhile

what made you cross the line?
what made you blatantly
abuse mine?

i think now,
from far away
years of long ago,
our time together
was short,
not deep enough

you wandered away
i wasn’t wise enough
i didn’t take the time
i made you cross the line

you and he
in full view
of my eyes
that once looked
into yours

you and he,
in my face
holding his,
ignoring mine

without even so much
as a goodbye,
you left me cold
i lost myself again

i take the blame
i went about,
pretending i knew,
my own way
pretending you weren’t there,
like the strangers we once were

but,
you could of said hello
you could have spoken
you could have been sarcastic,
even glanced me a venom eye
it would have felt better
than your cold indifference

you could have explained
but,
you pretended too,
made me a total stranger
that hurt,
a bit

it made me sad,
quite a bit

though,
i was surprised,
a lot,
that
i was not indignant

maybe you wanted
me to find out,
why

to fight for you
to plead with you

it’s hard to do that
when you don’t
know yourself,
i wasn’t wise enough

it was as much
fault of mine
as it was yours,

our love failed
in turning not
to passion

Reviews

[RuseInex]

your're right, i've learned many things through loneliness and pain, writing helps bring catharsis and healing

[wordman]

but youlearned something from it,and there will be sweet memories,not all lost