Daddy Dearest

Daddy Dearest

A Poem by Sad Penguin
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Therapy homework

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When I was younger
You were rarely there
We stayed in the same house
You just didn't care
You didn't always speak
you didn't always try
Now I'm sad and angry
Waiting to die
Its not all your fault
Though you should take some blame
I never learned to deal
With sadness and shame
When I didn't understand
You got angry and yelled
I cried inside
Imagine how that felt
I tried so hard
To seek your approval
It never worked out
I was simply delusional
You bitched at me some days
For never coming to you
When I finally did
You turned me away
Why do I bother
You hurt me again and again
People like you are why
I've locked myself away
Now I've become you
It makes me angry....
F**k You!
At least I take it out on me
Unlike you
Who broke a guitar over my mother.....
F**k You!
I'll fight forever
So I'm never an ounce
If that were to happen
I'd kill myself
If I ever have a child
I'll actually take an interest
Love will be more than about money
And my wife more than property
In a sense
I should be thanking you
In your ignorance
You've shown me something
You've shown me pathetic
You've shown me nothing
So I'll continue to fight
Thanks for showing me whats wrong
So I can live right!

© 2011 Sad Penguin


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learn to see that the people in your life, especially the 'important' people, bring with them their personal history, so that while they are acting in the moment with you, they are also acting out their whole history, and if they haven't done their homework, they pass it on to you...now it's your turn, pass it on or transform it into a higher understanding...your dad is just another guy, and he's scarred

Posted 10 Years Ago



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Added on November 14, 2011
Last Updated on November 14, 2011
Tags: Abuse, Abuser, Abusive, Therapy, Homework

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I'm a male in my twenties who is currently going through a rough patch. More than two years ago, I have been diagnosed with the following: Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Major Depression, Agoraph.. more..

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