Forgiveness Part 3: Myself

Quite possible the most important thing I have and ever will write for a very long time.

I've grown into a new being
I'm not the same old servant
I've accepted my pain
Washed up the blood stains

My wrists now heal
As does my soul
I see good inside
I've become more whole

The difference is quite astounding
It's amazing to think
I know I can do this
I won't even blink

I'll achieve my goals
I'll be greater than my pain
I won't kill myself
Never will I try again

I used to only see hatred
Now I see acceptance
I may not be perfect
I know I'm worth it

I'm very afraid of moving forward
Though I'm going to
I'll fight for my goals
Even when stress takes its toll

To rid myself from hiding
To become more inviting
This is what I'm deciding

I accept you as you are
You have room to grow
I believe in you child
Just the fact this exists
Makes all my effort worthwhile

I forgive you for being scared
I forgive you for hating me
I forgive you for hitting me
I forgive you for cutting me
I forgive you for not loving me
I forgive you for wanting to drown me
I forgive you for starving me
I forgive you for screaming at me
I forgive you for destroying me
 
Take care of yourself
Release your pain
The past is dead
Only look ahead

Lots of trials await
Mistakes will happen

You'll never be perfect
As much as the next guy
But at least you tried
Instead of sitting alone waiting to die