Collect

This is easy at times but sometimes it just gets hard, and I guess when it does its my will.

Collecting every piece that I ever lost,
its not as it is suppose to be,
I am quiet and numb,
walking and collecting pieces

Collecting every lie I ever bought,
its foolish to believe,
I am vulnerable and numb
sympathized and tortured

Collecting every part of my love,
ever cried and begged to show,
that it means more than just few fake words,
sobbed and soaked to their reality

Collecting every tear that I saw falling
for beautiful and joyful sins
most delicious efforts of my soul
clearly and obviously categorized

Collecting the silence and screams,
the sins with innocence,
the tears and sighs,
and the fake smile that kept me alive

Collecting those lost days,
those pure mornings,
those unknown evenings,
and the bloody nights

I am collecting myself
I am collecting my soul
I am collecting everything
because I am collecting everything.

Author's Note

- and sometimes it is simply impossible to find out the reason why my mind goes back to every failure of my life and that 'going back' is so strong that everything begins to suffocate. Instead of fighting that unknown strength, I have begin to let it happen now every time. Just go back, collect everything, feed whatever whoever wants and sleep at night with peace, I don't know but I pretend that its peace. And I really like to keep it that way.

Reviews

[MandaBear]

Wow great writing. Good job!!

[Sami Khalil]

"Collecting those lost days,
those pure mornings,
those unknown evenings,
and the bloody nights

I am collecting myself
I am collecting my soul"
A splendid read and write...Thank you for sharing...:)

[MOON]

All the collecting weighs you down , the past is only there to teach and to let go of. Poignant write well conveyed the baggage that makes the road a heavy burden.

[Rita L. Sev]

A lot being said here, Maan. It is important to gather your flaws and failings at times - to take a spiritual inventory - but equally important to throw away that which weighs you down. I like the use of repetition in your opening lines, and the last lines - I am collecting everything because I am collecting everything... is great, suggesting that if you do not do this "collecting" consciously, it will happen anyway and consume you.