Shameful Things

Shameful Things

 

Lay coal upon my bed.

Burn it to the ground and

Let me feel the warm air

Skim my skin.

 

I can see the sun crawling

Through the ice,

The grass sprouts patches of

Yellow as I take a final step.

 

I am lead into shameful things

In result of my sin.

But I’ll pray for some heat

For our cold bones.

 

Hearing life scream in the passing wind.

Feeling the dead brush past me

As I walk into death

Myself.

 

I live life like

I’m ready to die.

Replenish me into

The splendor of life,

 

But do not bloom him

Into my head,

He doesn’t want to know

When I tell him,

 

He ignores the truth.

I am black where he is white.

I am lead into shameful things,

Whilst he is submerged into the bath of purity.

 

And I look into the tin she did.

I inhale the clouds

That the sky is

Are relieved of.

 

I look into eyes that are

Unseeing.

Simple.

If I split my body open

 

And pour my insides 

O V E R

Him,

He will cowar.

 

Before the darkness of me

devours him he will glimpse 

A fraction of the

Abyss of me.

 

He thinks I am all he

Wants.

He knows not of my

Mind,

 

Of my

heart

As I sit without a

Knife...

 

Only a mind full of turmoil.

I will walk through

The fuel of life

And feel weary.

 

I detangle my brain around others

Only to find I am

Helpless

As they grab a length of my being

 

And tie more knots.

Twirling,

In circles

And overlapping

 

Until I am not

Myself

At

All.

Reviews

[jacob erin-cilberto]

i am full of shame, he thinks he loves me...but he does not know of my darkness inside...

if he did, he too would realize all my sins, and he would not want me...

he sees what he wants to see, and only that.
but i cannot fool myself...i know me...and i feel shamed...

[SamanthaSweeney]

Well summed up! Exactly what I was thinking when I wrote this.

[Sami Khalil]

"Only a mind full of turmoil.

I will walk through

The fuel of life

And feel weary.



I detangle my brain around others

Only to find I am

Helpless

As they grab a length of my being"
A good read and write...Thank you for sharing...:)

[SamanthaSweeney]

Thank you Sami for your words and your read :)

[Sami Khalil]

You are welcome...:)