I Said Goodbye to the Sun

I Said Goodbye to the Sun

A Poem by Sarah_Allen
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The hardest decision I ever made. The most painful too...

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I said goodbye to the sun, 
to save her from the night, 
the kind that lurked within my mind, 
to stop me from blacking that light, 

I watched the sun sink over the horizon, 
let it leave me in the lonely sky, 
my fingers are freezing from the cold, 
and my heart feels only dry ice, 

it's just me and this empty space, 
 I set the sun free to protect it, 
Better alone than bring her down, 
I had no choice but to neglect it, 

it's funny when you see the sunset, 
you really start feeling alone, 
let the pitch black swallow you whole, 
let the pain turn you to stone, 

like Chaos, like Ouranos, like Atlas, like Hades, 
it hurts; but it's best for the sun to hate me, 
like Nyx, like Thanatos, like Styx, like Ahklys, 
it's better to die than bring her down with me, 

I said goodbye to the sun, 
And now tears are my only friend, 
Choking and suffocating on my sorrow, 
I'm sorry I had to do this again, 

If I had a star for every tear I cried, 
I'd make a wish on them all, 
Stargazing the galaxy filled sky, 
From where I began my fall, 

The lonely nights get colder, 
Without that warmth to melt the pain, 
Soon my breaths are visible in the air, 
And I'm starting to go insane, 

It's only an hour past twilight, 
And I'm already nostalgic for the sun, 
But I'm afraid my reach will freeze her too, 
So I remain here until I'm done, 

In years they'll find me lying here,
and blame it on the cold, 
But reality I died from my aches,
Because I said goodbye so bold

© 2018 Sarah_Allen


Author's Note

Sarah_Allen
Sigh. I don't feel anything anymore... My head hurts. Perhaps i'll just lie here until I'm dead. What's the point anymore? Aren't you supposed to sleep at night anyways?

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deep and full of emotion.

Posted 8 Months Ago


Sarah_Allen

8 Months Ago

thank you so much! :D
I'm sorry if this is a description of how life really feels for you. But since your "handle" suggests you're drawn to dark haunting ideas (edgar allen poe), maybe this is just the way you enjoy putting words together. Either way, you have many creative & imaginative ways to show how the darkness manifests. This isn't just dumping out depressing thoughts, as some dark poem are. Here you've done a great job of crafting a dark story with strong imagery. I love how you title line can refer to the sun in the sky or it can be a symbol of someone with a disposition too sunny to have him/her around any longer (((HUGS))) Fondly, Margie

Posted 10 Months Ago


Sarah_Allen

10 Months Ago

thank you so much; ah yes i do feel this but i do enjoy crafting dark poems together. its a hate lov.. read more
You know I liked this poem though it was filled with sadness and depression..I feel sometimes like this..Just like we have to say goodbye to sun every night , there are times in our lives also when we have to say goodbye to our loved ones , for their good..You know when you love someone , loving teaches you that its not gaining something but its losing many things..If their good is in not being with you , you have to let them go even if you feel like holding them back..Because sometimes its better to bear all the difficulties and sadness alone than to make our loved ones worried with those..You know this piece of writing doesn't feel like written by a 15 year old..Its a writing with so mature thoughts..And yes lot of sadness also..Take care dear..I feel sorry that you feel this way...But you know life is not static if today it makes you sad tomorrow it will make you happy , if today you have to let that sun go tomorrow when morning comes it will come on your own to you this period of sadness and happiness will go on dear...Keep writing...
Take care
Riddhi

Posted 10 Months Ago


I can completely understand how you feel. although i'm sure even if I couldn't relate before hand that after reading this I would. that's just how well it is written.

Posted 10 Months Ago


I can totally relate to all the pain you are feeling. Great writing! Keep it up!

Posted 11 Months Ago


Sarah_Allen

11 Months Ago

Thanks so much :P
There's so much sadness in this and I can identify with it in some ways. At times, I didn't want to get out of bed, and other times I wanted the night to go on forever. You have a lot of talent for writing. Keep at it.

Posted 11 Months Ago


Sarah_Allen

11 Months Ago

Thank you so much :)
I'm sorry you relate... I hope you're alright
 Relic

11 Months Ago

I'm fine, Sarah. Thanks.
Great piece of poetry, about how depression and sadness overwhelm you and makes you hide from the sun and life in general. And how without the sun. The days and nights just go on forever. Never knowing if its day or night.

Posted 11 Months Ago


Sarah_Allen

11 Months Ago

Yeah. The nights can be confusing. But thank you dawn! (you've brightened up my day :P) hahaha
A poignant piece of poetry ...sadness bleeds
out in each verse of a bleak existence..to exist
without the sun shining in our lives would be very
depressing indeed..well written..

Posted 11 Months Ago


Sarah_Allen

11 Months Ago

thank you so much for this review, Fran. it means a lot!
"it's just me and this empty space,
because I set the sun free to protect it,"- How many times have I too emptied out my own life of good things for fear of losing them, and then had to endure the chilling cold that came thereafter? Sigh. "that's the last hurt I could take," indeed. Nice clincher!

Posted 11 Months Ago


Sarah_Allen

11 Months Ago

Thanks Diana fo the review! :D
ok, now because I can't help it I'm going to call you the Gre.. read more
Diana

11 Months Ago

Hah hah. I'd prefer Diana, but I appreciate the thought.
Sarah_Allen

11 Months Ago

hahahahahah. sorry not sorry
Seems we don't die as easily as we'ld wish - doesn't even matter how often we wish either. But dying because life really, REALLY hurts is one thing, of boredom or dimness or sameness is another. Life has no obligation to be interesting or meaning-FULL to anyone - so it is up to us to find our own paths and meanings. You remind me of a person I knew… Tania, I talk about her in "Open Mic…"

Up and down and up and down and on and on
and on and…
ever on - sometimes in
sometimes not,
you find the laughter in the specks caught
in the sunlight…
and the tears are the rain that shadows -
all you are.
Love is a moment
and you want to share
e v e r y t h i n g
but can't cause we don't…
u n d e r s t a n d ??
and even if we do -
YOU don't have the time
to not be YOU!

Chris


Posted 11 Months Ago


Sarah_Allen

11 Months Ago

Thank you so much for your review Chris! It's hard to say goodbye to those we care about... But luck.. read more
Chris

11 Months Ago

Take care Sarah - say hello anytime.
Sarah_Allen

11 Months Ago

I will :) haha

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