The Highest my Life Could Get

The Highest my Life Could Get

A Poem by Sarah_Allen
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A suicide poem.

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If I fell,  
There would be no one to catch me, 
If I strayed down the wrong path, 
There would be no one to fetch me, 

From the top of the tower, 
It's the highest my life could get, 
Shaken by this chilling wind, 
My mind sadistically forgets,  

If I took a jump, 
There would be no one to prevent me,
 If I closed my eyes and leaned,
 There would be no one to repent me,  

I stand on the roof, 
It's the closest to Heaven I could ever be, 
I'm an angel without wings, 
That's just how my human side should be, 

If I took my life, 
There would be no one to cry over me, 
If I spread my arms and leapt, 
There would be no losing sleep at nigh for me,  

I quiver about the distance, 
But for now I'm at the high of my world, 
This is my time, for once about me, 
And now my body is being hurled,  

Falling faster than my tears, 
Past every hurt and every fear, 
But yet you just walked away, 
No one was ever meant to stay, 

© 2019 Sarah_Allen


Author's Note

Sarah_Allen
The quote from The Legend of Zelda... The twilight Princess...

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Suicide isn’t always such a terrible thing always. There must be a reason so many opt for it. This does indeed feel like a lousy world to be in sometimes. Then the only thing that matters is the people that would be hurt. Well done.

Posted 1 Week Ago


Sarah_Allen

1 Week Ago

Exactly, why do people chose to stay in a world and suffer. Is it because they arent brave enough to.. read more
Pestonjee_

1 Week Ago

Good question. I think it’s the former more than anything else. If I was sure of an after-life, I�.. read more
Sarah_Allen

1 Week Ago

Yeah. A leap into the darkness. How brave- if you think about it.
We live in troubled times and there is a high rate of suicide. In the UK many are young men. They are the ones who find it hardest to talk about their problems. They are the ones who think discussing their problems is a weakness. We all need to watch out for one another and be good listeners. Listening can save lives. This was a tough poem to read Sarah, but yet so well expressed. Writing about it, will help others. I haven't read you for a while. Hope all is OK with you.

Chris

Posted 2 Weeks Ago


Sarah_Allen

1 Week Ago

Ah thank you for stoping by! Communication is the key bridge in connections and often that bridge in.. read more
Suicide, a hidden demon. I lost two brothers to suicide. No-one knew they were struggling and afraid. Dear Sarah, you poem is strong, honest and realistic thoughts. My brothers suicides taught me to listen, not lecture. Be kind. We never know the place someone is. Thank you for sharing the powerful poetry and your thoughts.
Coyote

Posted 9 Months Ago


Sarah_Allen

9 Months Ago

thank you so much coyote, it means a lot when you say that. Im sorry about your brothers, and yes, n.. read more
Coyote Poetry

9 Months Ago

We must listen and be kind. The world is hard enough and you are welcome dear Sarah.
Thank you for your kindness in writings this poem it will help so many in need to spread the words of depression and the feeling many have and to reverse the effects of an illness that has many caught in Its Powerful grip. God Bless You My New Friend.

Posted 1 Year Ago


Sarah_Allen

1 Year Ago

Thank you for your thoughts here and your kind words. It means a lot to me when someone reads my wor.. read more
Not sure of your location, but in the USA suicide rates are thru the roof, as well as many other places. There's a growing doom felt by the masses. Many write about suicide and it feels like a dump of ugliness being flung on the page. Hopefully this is helpful for those who need to do this. But my preference is to make art out of such pain, the way you have done. This is one of the most beautiful suicide poems I've read in my 3 yrs here. There's an amazing balance between light & airy, combined with dark & gloomy . . . so that your word crafting sounds like that twisted dose of dread & giddiness that one might feel in such moments (((HUGS))) Fondly, Margie

Posted 1 Year Ago


Sarah_Allen

1 Year Ago

Aye, I am from the USA. And it does have really high rates. I believe the 24th highest out of every .. read more
Reading this, Sarah. Understand, there is always someone there to catch you. Always someone who wants to be with you. I don't necessarily mean in this mortal coil, this constricting asphyxiation. No ... beyond that.

It took me till I was 12-years old to find my soul-mate, and she was not of this world. But she was there for me. Utterly and completely. It's kind of hard to describe. Like a sleep, a deep one, the kind that enfolds you, almost smothers you in its embrace. But it's not unpleasant, it's one of yearning and desire beyond life and death. It's the knowledge that someone somewhere truly does love you just for you.

It shows ... we're not alone - and never have been.


Posted 1 Year Ago


Sarah_Allen

2 Weeks Ago

True to that, better yes, what is the definition of insane? Losing one’s mind? But what does that .. read more
dw817

2 Weeks Ago

Losing one's mind is an easy thing to see - and experience. Your balances shift. When you are "crazy.. read more
Sarah_Allen

2 Weeks Ago

Unfortunately. I either feel too extreme or not at all. There is no inbetween, just violent instabil.. read more
Ah, it took me a while to really review this because the tone here always stopped me short while reading...
It's always a strange feeling, knowing you're at the high of your world but that being your lowest too..I think that's a space where we take ourselves to not let anything touch or affect us in anyway. Perhaps, in a way it works for the time being, but it leaves us falling faster.. I can relate to how you feel in the first stanza btw, but that changed for me, 'cause I did find this beautiful soul who caught me when I was about to fall in the realms of darkness. I hope that happens for you too.
I always get so much out of your writes, Sarah. x

Posted 1 Year Ago


Sarah_Allen

1 Year Ago

Oh yumna, I'm sorry it was hard for you to read XD and I apologize for my late response!!! Haha, did.. read more
Oh my very somber tune in this.... the arms of a thousand would clutch and hold your spirit and your voice would give no tone! Only silent echoes of resonance in a cacophony of shrill! tis better to stand sound and write the right rather then to wrap ineffectual as silent witness and recorder.... ask the spirits about you and they will tell you the same my lovely dear Poe girl. you have a gift that should be used refined and shared in your plight of melancholic turnings

Posted 1 Year Ago


Sarah_Allen

1 Year Ago

thank you so much! youre flattering; but im not as good as people say. I appreciate you stopping by!.. read more
Robert Trakofler (Bad Bunny)

1 Year Ago

I wouldn't waste my efforts to say that to you if i did not see it
I know life can leave you like this. Always when you're on top of the building. Do I decide to jump? Death may be my only friend.

Posted 1 Year Ago


Sarah_Allen

1 Year Ago

Thank you for this lovely review! thanks for stopping byyyyyy :P nice seeing you here!!!
Mr. Mills

1 Year Ago

Where you go, I will go Sarah
Sarah_Allen

1 Year Ago

Hahahaha thats sweet! thanks! i'll try going to somewhere nice, maybe hawaii :P
This is super powerful. This really made me think about how I interact with those around me. The lines: "Tell me this - can you see? The ay depression has affected me? But yet you just walked away," Hit close to home for me. Won't go into the details here, but made me think back to those times. Thank you for sharing as always.

Posted 1 Year Ago


Sarah_Allen

1 Year Ago

thank you for your review! i appreciate you stopping by!!! :D

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Added on January 18, 2019
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Tags: Suicide, depression, loneliness, death

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