Self-Destruct

Self-Destruct

A Poem by Sarah_Allen
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About breaking down in self destruction mode... Based on true event

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I screamed and no one heard me,
I bled and no one prayed for me, 
I choked and only suffocated, 
Banned and only isolated, 
Devastated, 

Pressured to be obedient, 
Forcing myself to believe in it,
 Going insane from the hourglass,  
Building up with sand of distress,   

My life is self destructing! 
And everything is crumbling,  
I'm screaming
Can you SEE me?  
Deep breathing, receding,  
In and out, in and out- 
Don't panic, alarms bleeding- 
Keep breathing-! 

People like you get what they want, 
People like me keep falling apart, 
My heart-! In pieces and parts!  
Clutching my chest in agony, 
Knees on the floor- mind queasy- 
Breathe into me! 

Who am I anymore?  
My face has faded! 
Soul and mind degraded, 
Dissipated!

God!  
I'm just a mania, deforming, 
Slave to the show I'm performing
The blood and rage before me- 
Explore me!
I'm exploding into something else! 
Dear Lord,  
Let me destroy myself!  

 If only I knew how to re-construct... 
When I hit self destruct...

© 2019 Sarah_Allen


Author's Note

Sarah_Allen
Haven't been on lately... Too much has happened...

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This is so amazing and kinda powerful as well, very creative.

Posted 2 Months Ago


Sarah_Allen

2 Months Ago

Thank you, and poetry itself is creative, isn't it? ;)
Kesch

2 Months Ago

yes it is....
Sarah_Allen

2 Months Ago

Which means you're pretty creative too :)
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Rye
This is such a powerful write here, so emotional as well

Posted 2 Months Ago


Sarah_Allen

2 Months Ago

Thank you :)
Wow...this was powerful. Especially with the directions my own writing has been going currently haha. As always you're poetry is amazing and emotion filled. I can definitely tell poetry is your outlet and never let go of it. Actually had me thinking it was a metal song after a few times reading it. Can't wait for more.

Posted 2 Months Ago


Sarah_Allen

2 Months Ago

Thank you!!!! I imagine the words in a breakdown tone. In some places, I'm screaming, on my knees in.. read more
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i am thinking Plath here...only her cries were more subtle...this is an all-out scream for help...
and is quite powerful...sounds like the "too much" was not good...but this is a great way to vent---
and such a result...
j.

Posted 2 Months Ago


Sarah_Allen

2 Months Ago

Thank you Jacob, my outward appearance is subtle but I do like to scream on paper. Though the pens I.. read more
No kidding "too much has happened" - WHERE THE HECK DID THIS COME FROM!!!!!!! This is amazing! You need to go back and tweak some minor technicalities and do some necessary line breaking for emphasis before this wouldn't become the epitome of perfection (I can help you if you really need it). But at first read......holy kwap!! I have no words.....my voice is in my freaking awe!! The flow, the sound work, the message - AAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I had written a similar piece called "Pesadumbre", which to this day I hold has my most powerful piece emotionally. But I think you topped it with this (it's on par right now because of your little errors, which should be fixed, but fix them, and you would have the better version of this thematic poem). Freaking Whaaaaaat!!!!!! Way - to Go! This is your bar. Now you gotta try to top this! Well done!

Posted 2 Months Ago


emipoemi

2 Months Ago

*you might also consider: "Dear Lord,/"Let me destroy myself" (as line breaks help with the emphasis.. read more
Sarah_Allen

2 Months Ago

Oh thanks, I noticed a couple of those problems were autocorrect XD (showing) hahaha! Thank you!
emipoemi

2 Months Ago

my pleasure.

try to find another way to do the "ripping" line, because you just made .. read more

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Added on July 18, 2019
Last Updated on September 19, 2019
Tags: Suicide, self destruct, breaking down, self harm

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Sarah_Allen
Sarah_Allen

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