A Dying Poet's Sacrifice

A Dying Poet's Sacrifice

A Poem by LazerRays
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A slam poem

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So you say there’s something wrong with me 
From the lyrics of the song I sing 
To the mirrors we anoint as kings 
Choke on words- but you’re still breathing 
Retreating-  

Into the shadows we’re made of 
Worship obsession and call it love 
How can you say you’ve had enough
When your whole life you’ve lived on luck?  

I choke on words and suffocate 
Dreaming of worlds we could create
  
I tried to fit in and ended up deformed 
Whipped like an animal and forced to perform 
They hailed me as a royal with the crown of thorns 
A slave to the system since the day I was born  

So scream in my face for the lyrics I sing! 
I bleed the words God gave me 
Tear myself apart for entertainment 
And you labeled me insanity 

You don’t know what it means to breathe! 
To let the emotions cut in deep 
-Let them pierce your skin till you start to bleed 
And rip your heart out for the world to see 

As Edgar said, we’ve loved alone 
I keep telling you, this isn’t my home 
Somewhere out there I’ll find myself 
Maybe before I kill myself 
Maybe then I’ll find my peace 
And the pain inside will start to ease  

There’s only so much blood one can bleed 
My writings a threat, but only to me

© 2020 LazerRays


Author's Note

LazerRays
People tend to forget how a writer can get lost in their works. Tearing one’s heart out over and over for entertainment can get tiresome. One can only bleed so much before they give in to the tiredness, and let go. It’s about depression, madness and losing hope...

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Well, Sarah Dear 🤔

I can certainly say this much, "If you keep writing with this much open honesty, using as powerful emotion and communicating skills as you've spewed-forth in every expressive line of this rave, you'll never have to worry about going insane, because no unconscious or unaware person wrote all this fastastical piece of poetic brilliance!"
It took being there, doing that, and my hat's off to you for turning out so damned skilled and able, despite what may have worked against it … shows what a strong and determined spirit you surely have.

I bow with great admiration and respect to you, Lady Sarah.
Thank you for the blast of reality every serious poet should read.
Hugs 'n blessings! ⁓ Richard 🍃

(I'd rate you 200/100 for this, if I could. Hm? I guess I just did.) 😏

Posted 3 Years Ago


LazerRays

3 Years Ago

Ah thank you Richard, my head is swelling! I think I can take organized chaos to construct slam poet.. read more
Richard🖌

3 Years Ago

A lovely pleasure, Sarah.
I want you to know I needed your sacrificial words today...your open honesty gives me hope because I have often hid my true feelings from the world in order to fit in, only to find i'm killing myself slowly to be loved by people who will never understand me...and to be quite blunt, people who i really don't want to know on a deeper level, because those people are actually pretty shallow. Thank you for sharing your poetry!

Posted 3 Years Ago


LazerRays

3 Years Ago

And thank you for reviewing and readin my poetry. It means a lot that someone can relate to my works.. read more
I so love the last stanza, this is so very well written and said.
Deep and full of heart....

Posted 4 Years Ago


LazerRays

4 Years Ago

Thank you very much for your review :)
So scream in my face for the lyrics I sing!
I bleed the words God gave me
Tear myself apart for entertainment
And you labeled me insanity

The poet is the only true observer of their lyric. We "tear ourselves apart" or open our dark thoughts to "entertain" or share openly that others may explore or recognize their mutual human journey.

Frankly, many are not up to the opportunity we offer. The odd thing to me is that it surprises me when they miss what I am attempting to say and thus the opportunity.

Thank you for your bravery.


Posted 4 Years Ago


LazerRays

4 Years Ago

Yes, or they underestimate it. I’m a world like now, we’re becoming more disconnected with techn.. read more
A strong and expressive statement of you...

Posted 4 Years Ago


LazerRays

4 Years Ago

Thank you chris
This is immense and powerful Sarah. Very emotive and bleeding. It will be all ok and please never lose hope. We all have to struggle and survive among all those ups and downs. Your emotions do run deep and your will is sharp and steep.

Posted 4 Years Ago


Sami Khalil

4 Years Ago

Wow! The hell with those types. If they offer a positive advice, then by all means. When it becomes .. read more
LazerRays

4 Years Ago

Hahaha I wish! Be safe, my friend!
Sami Khalil

4 Years Ago

::::::))))))))
"I choke on words and suffocate
Dreaming up worlds we could create

I tried to fit in and ended up deformed"

Posted 4 Years Ago


"From the lyrics of the song I sing
To the mirrors we anoint as kings
Choke on words- but you’re still breathing"

Posted 4 Years Ago


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Hey Sarah! So dearie this was a a greatly expressive poetry. Apart from poetry you're reflecting your strength. Its a skill to be creative in pain, the one who makes it out exceeds the world.
With lots of love and wishes of Good luck

Posted 4 Years Ago


LazerRays

4 Years Ago

Thank you so much! That was kind of you. I end up bleeding a lot; it hurts. Thank you again for stop.. read more
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4 Years Ago

Sure anytime... You're like a little sis. :)
LazerRays

4 Years Ago

Haha thank you- tho we the same age
Great poem very deep loved it

If you get a chance read famous historic poet Henry Lawson poem called the last review
He wrote hundreds and he quoted Some of them and his characters and places in this poem as he lay dying in the poem poetically speaking

Well worth a squiz ( a look) Aussie slang

Posted 4 Years Ago


LazerRays

4 Years Ago

Huh, I will be glad to check him out. Nothing better than a self destruction piece, eh? Haha. Thank .. read more
Julie McCarthy (juliespenhere)

4 Years Ago

No it wasn’t written when he died maybe just in his old age but the poem set on his deathbed well .. read more

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Added on March 31, 2020
Last Updated on April 12, 2020
Tags: Blood, slam, poetry, depression, giving up, breathing, bleeding, suicide, tearing, heart, dying, death, life, dreams

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LazerRays
LazerRays

Spit truth, bleed emotion, fight for love, hold to your morals



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Old username: Sarah_Allen_Poe am a former stimulant addict who has found new life and meaning through psychedelics. I enjoy late night longboarding, cooking, astronomy, DDR, retro video .. more..

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