Heartache

The fact that I miss you and can't do a damn thing about it ..

The fact that I think about you every single second that passes in my day ..

The fact that I am going to leave and never come back ..

Does that even effect your heart?

The idea of my heart giving up on you and leaving is just killing me slowly ..

I act like I don't care , like I don't feel a thing .. while inside I am dying ..

My heart aches every day knowing that it will stop beating for you ..

stop seeing you ..

and slowly .. stop loving you ..

How painful is that ?

I'd rather drug my heart to slowly stop loving you, then to have to deal with this pain every single day ..