Friends Forever <3 Even if it hurts me :)

Sense the 4th grade 

My life changed forever

Thats when I found myself

and the people I love <3

~*~

Giggles and screams

Love and friendship

Everything was wonderful

I was at my happiest point

that I've ever been at

It was when i met

Jessi and Maddy

all because

Niki introduced me to them

New games made up

New friendships made

Preparing us for 

all the struggles up the road

Never once

have I ever felt alone

with them by my side

Never once

have we fought

Changing my life forever

I never forgot about them

Instead I love them

~*~

One year later: 5th grade

Still best friends

but loosing our innocence

Introduced to suicide

by my father

My parents got a divorce

and my world started crashing down

second by second

It got to the point 

Where i only felt accepted

By my friends

People were always fighting

once I got home

I thought about running away

I thought about taking my own life

Anything to get away from the pain

but my friends

Helped me keep my ground

They kept me alive and bright

And the saying

"Friends Forever"

never seemed to change

~*~

Another year later: 6th grade

Scared and terrified

In a new school

with new people

everything so new

Including a new feeling

called loss

Maddy moved away

and my hope shattered

Afraid she would change

I held onto her

our memories replayed

Over and over 

in my head

"Everything will be okay!"

is all I could think

so all the bad thoughts

would just go away

~*~

A year later: 7th grade

A year I gained another

cool and awesome friend

A friend I never thought i'd have

I knew her in 5th grade

but never got close to her

her name is Margaret

Still keeping in touch with Maddy

everything seemed

happy and great

New memories added

but soon 

the happiness got taken away

Again

As we entered January 2011

Jessi moved away

another goodbye added

Maddy changed more

and my heart broke in two

thats when I pulled out the knife

but Margaret caught me in the act

and forced me to stop

Telling me 

not to make the same mistake 

she had done

After that

she swore to protect me

~*~

Present:

Thinking back to the past

I don't regret a single thing that happened

If I never knew Niki

I wouldn't know Jessi or Maddy

and if I didn't meet them

I wouldn't be here

I would've killed myself

I barley talk to Maddy now

She changed too much

that its just to painful to talk to her

but she scarred my heart forever

with the three little words

I Love You <3

All of them are

engraved in my heart

I'll love them and

protect them

with my heart, soul, and life

Forever

Author's Note

Not my best poem well thats what i think but it does have alot of meaning to it i was looking through my poetry and i realized i never wrote a happy poem about my poems but thins took forever to write because its hard to put are friendship into words but even though its not my best writing its one of my favorites
because every inch of it is the truth
and love
Friends Forever even if it hurts me <3
I love my friends :)

Reviews

[Chelsea]

omg i really loved this poem. it made me tear up a bit, makes you realize how important friendship really is.

[Leave me alone....]

this is REALLY good. i had a friend who moved away a few years ago. she changed so much that i stopped talking to her a long time ago. i decided to text her one day and when i said 'Hi' she said 'Who is this?' that crushed me because before she left she said she would never forget me. but she did and i can't believe she did that. a few months after she left she sent me a pic of her 'new' self and i didn't recognize her and she was so different that it hurt me deep down. this poem filled me with thoughts of my friend and all i have to say is emotional 100 for you.

[Judas Hammer]

awesome, your very good, I'm so glad your alive to share this. Thanks you for being so transparent.

[☯]

This poem is really touching and lovely. I really liked reading about the growth process you went through and the many things that happened through the years. It's true, people change, and friends also do too. We find new people, and we also people also find us. An great poem :)

[Jessiee]

this is super great. i love the story its telling about friends and i know how you feel when your friends move away because my best friend is moving this summer. :) great poew

[Alicia Hirshey]

This poem is great.

[Helpless]

the title is genius! its explains the feeling of true love