R.I.P Leo Thomas Hubel November 1, 1952 -- August 20, 2010

This just an online eulogy to someone very important to me who has helped me out over the years

This man is someone that I owe my whole world to. He made me strong when I was weak. He gave me advice when I had questions but no answers. He gave me a place to rest my head when I was tired. Handed me a coffee when I needed a boost, leant out an ear when I needed to speak. He was there for me if I needed it. Anything I needed he would provide if he could. I owe the fact that I am off drugs to 3 people, but this man is the biggest reason. He never pushed me or told me that his way was the right way, instead he guided me and showed me a better path, gave me the chance to take it.

 

-----One day I had made my first mistake after getting out of Detox, I went to see Dylan, but he wasn't home, instead of sending me on my way, Leo and Alma let me rest my head, then made me some food and some coffee. After I relaxed a bit and gathered my thoughts together, they sat me down, and talked to me about Leo's own experiences within the same problem I was facing, He did not tell me anything or tell me he was right, he talked to me and told me what worked for him. He was the first person to make me see that I needed to find something better for myself. He and Alma made me see that I was worth more then what I was doing to myself. They made me see that any sin can be forgiven. After all was said and done Leo handed me a book, which he read everyday to strengthen his sobriety, he wanted me to take it and use. I took it. I used it. One day I was confronted by a Man who was in the depth of alcoholism and wanted to change, I paid it forward, I gave it to this man. I talked to him the way Leo talked to me. I must've been at least 15 years younger then this man, yet I used Leo’s words and this man hung onto every word, almost as if I was an elder to him, or some sort of wise man. No, in fact I was just repeating someone else's words. I would love to know if he succeeded in his quest for sobriety but I will never know.-----

 

I made a promise to this man so I will make sure that a token of my sobriety will follow him into the next life. Another person, the second strongest influence to my success gave me an NA tag, which his been hanging from my keychain since I started this journey to heal. It will be buried near the sight where Leo’s ashes will be set for eternity.

 

If it wasn't for you, well then I guess I would've been much worse then I was, I wouldn’t just be sitting in an empty apartment with nothing left in it cause I pawned it all, barely able to move off my couch, and constantly sick, puking, sore and in desperate need of a fix. No, I would be dead right now.

 

So whether you guys believe me or give a s**t at all. Doesn't really matter to me. I just wanted to say that I was more then just one of my best bud's family. He was my family.

 

Leo wherever you are... I'm sorry that I never showed my gratitude to you while you were alive, or let you know how much you helped me. You helped me out. You helped many people out. You were a great man. And I hope you achieved all your goals in life. Take 'er easy up there. We won’t forget you.

 

Author's Note

This is just something I wrote out of respect to a very important man

Reviews

[Lena M. P.]

Beautiful tribute. Believe me though you never spoke the words aloud; he heard it loud and clear through your actions of getting your life straight and focused. Congratualtions and thanks for sharing.

[Once upon a time]

I'm sure he knows now, and always knew how grateful you were to him.