I'd like to be better...

I needed to remind myself.

I’d like to be better…

I’d like to be strong.

 I’d like to be brave.

 I’d like for everyone to think I can handle things on my own,

Despite all this in reality I’m not.

 I’m beyond terrified.

 I’m terrified that I won’t go far in life. 

I’m petrified that i’ll fall in love and my heart will never be the same. 

I’m shaken at the thought of people seeing my mistakes.

I’m frozen in fear by the thought that someday i’ll give up on life and become hopeless.

I’m anxious that I’ll stop caring about me and hate who I’ll become.

Even though I am this panicked I know that I’ll be okay. Deep down I know I’m strong enough to do what I have to do to make a life worth living.  I know that I’ll have people in my life that’ll be strong with me. I’m smiling because I know that in a world like ours I’m not  trapped in this state of being afraid alone. Someone out there, Someone will or does cares about me. More than anyone I’ll ever have met they’ll really truly care about me. This thought will keep me going for now. The thought of someone out there is just as terrified as I am and maybe we'll cross path's and we'll be scared together maybe as lovers maybe as best friends. 

Reviews

[HeartBreakHotel]

Very nice write , you are strong don't doubt urself

[Inject Positivity]

The whole poem expresses the Poet's strong will and faith in her own abilities... It kind of speaks of pep talk to our own mind and reflects positive vibes... We are stronger than we think, and we have all the tools to live a life we want to live... Excellent work!!!

Sincerely
Dhiman