Dear Mr Daniels

This ones about alcoholism, the damage it does to relationships and the aftermath of this sort of thing.

Dear Mr Daniels

I'm sorry about this. I am.

I know this must feel kind of public if you see it.

But I need this place to get things off my chest.

Plus if it's here in the open I hope that it might help you in someway.

I told you I never did those,

Second chances.

I told you it makes people weak, door mats, a push over.

I had never been any of those things and I didn't want to be any of those things either. 

But you made me feel like all of those things,

You drank your second chance away,

In a love affair, with a man,

Named Mr. Jack Daniels.

I guess his taste must have been much sweeter than mine,

If any good ever came of this,

I hope that every morning you wake up without me,

You taste his bitter sweet, stale, sour breath on your tongue.

As a cruel reminder of how I sucked you dry,

& even though I'm damaged for now,

I hope this makes you stop,

Forever.

I know you must think, 

I'm feeling smug about this,

Knowing that I'm right,

& that I proved my point.

But I'm not,

I'm really not,

Not even a little,

I feel sad.

I realise how unpoetic that statement looks,

There's a million other better words I could have used,

But when you feel deep sadness,

You don't think about the big words.

Like forlorn and despondent,

Sad has an emptiness,

A simplicity,

Sometimes sad is all you can muster.

I'm sad because you think 40 units is more important than me,

I'm sad because to you I was worth less than £22

When I invested so highly,

In you.

I'm sad because every time I kiss someone,

Who drinks Jack Daniels,

All I can taste is disappointment and all I feel is a dull ache,

& then I gag and want so badly to cry.

So as much as I'm sad for now,

I know I won't always will be,

And despite everything,

I wish you all the best I guess.

I hope you find happiness somewhere,

That isn't at the bottom of a bottle,

And as we used to say;

Curiosity killed the cat,

But satisfaction brought her back.