The Night I Wept Under the Saint Andrews Cross of Mercy

I am the after thought of the dust
trampled under the soul of her foot
my spine pulverized by the beauty of her flesh
it's fragments cut deep into my gut
released poisons of my mind
as memories once kept hidden
in the darkness of my heart
emerged brilliantly into her light

"Broken, so broken you are!"
She speaks like black liquorish
appeasing to the ears and bitter to the taste buds

Her words pre-medication
to numb my feelings for her truth
like a surgeon using a dull blade
she begins to dissect my purpose for being
careful not to slice a major artery
I already have internal bleeding
my blood flows like black acid
searing hurt and pain to anything it touches
I am full or regret and I ache
from the weight of her body
as she stands a top my chest
looking for a soulless soul in this cavity
vengeance once gave me life
death is merely a promise of peace for me
my self image I abhor
I refuse to look at it in the mirror
if I did it would only make me cry
humiliation can ease the pain
degradation is the cure
for an emotional masochist
bent on becoming a pain s**t
her whip like love ripples against my skin
tearing it from bone and spirit
I cry on the inside
my fist clinched and I endure it
like Denzel Washington in Glory
except I screamed for mercy
and she didn't show it
until I collapsed from pure exhaustion
in her arms I found kindness
tender was her touch
upon the wounds of my heart
her kisses nourished me back to health
her finger stroked against my face
made me vulnerable to love again
my love for her, not even God can touch

I wept under the Saint Andrews cross
while others looked onward
watched me descend from sub space
people described it as intimate
as she stated strongly

"Broken, so broken you are,
but you're mine!"
 
The beauty of our D/s relationship
is that she accepts the ugliness
I hide within of being who I am
that is what it means
to be loved

I am her treasure
and she is my life
 

Reviews

[Muse]

Your S&M point-of-view makes me blush. ;)
"Broken, so broken you are!"
To break someone down, and nurse them back to health. It makes me think of the Stephen King movie "Misery". Your writing is taboo, but this is why I enjoy reading your work. You're not scared to push the envelope.........make the reader uncomfortable; like nails on the chalk board. Yet you enchant the reader to not turn away, to not cover their ears. They want to see the evil, know it, feel it, and fall in love with it.

[Neva Flores Smith - Cha..]

I agree with Muse, you definitely push the envelope but we love it and love your writing. :)

[Poetic Beauty]

This is blunt and honest. Many times we hold things inside and it become a physical need to be punished for our insecurities, for our lack in areas, for almost anything we deem we have done wrong. there is passion in this piece different from what people would deem normal but each person has their own way of showing love, giving love, and receiving love. Love is the one emotion that will cause a mess of others to follow. You have to hold on tight and enjoy the ride even if at times it threatens to throw you off pummeling to the ground. Life is complicated and we all need to find that person that fulfills us. Not so much the sexual experience for that can be done with a multitude of people but that person who makes us feel complete. This is a strong piece that gives insight to a different need and most wouldn't understand it. If they don't I hope this gives them insight to the need and the experience showing the truth bluntly but honestly with beauty.

[Stef Outsiders]

Wow... um... yeah... Wow... I can't find the words! (Gulp) =D

[Winslow Des Totes]

Wow! This is awesome!!
I absolutely loved the lines,
"She speaks like black liquorish
appeasing to the ears and bitter to the taste buds"
and,
"like Denzel Washington in Glory
except I screamed for mercy."
The second one made me giggle! :D Terrific write! Powerful as all your work is!! :D
Sorry it's been so long, moved out of state and I don't have internet at my new place yet. :D Can't wait till I do, then I can read all of your new stuff!!! YAY! Till then. ;)

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well you are on form..that left me a little breathless.. the intensity blows you away..deliciously dark and deviant..I am quite taken with your work it is just getting better and better..