Attempts at Romance

Attempts at Romance

A Poem by Quinn

I want to look into your eyes and see how deep they are, see the colours, the tiny dots of shade and the dancing lights

But I can’t, cos I’m s**t at eye contact

I want to hold you tight and be able to feel you as you move even the smallest amount, I want to know where every graze or dent is on your body

But I can’t, cos I can’t deal with that much touch

I want to take pictures with you, selfies with weird faces, dramatic couple shots and artsy black and white photographs for memories

But I can’t, cos I hate how I look

I want to tell my parents all about you, about us and about how I’m your boyfriend and you’re my girlfriend

But I can’t, cos that’s a hard conversation

I want to be able to talk to you all the time in all situations, I want to be able to tell you how I feel at and express how much you mean to me

But I can’t, cos I go mute


There is so much I want to be able to do but I can’t do it all but I can do a little,


I can watch you as you peacefully sleep and stare at your eyelids and imagine that they are open, I can make eye contact for a second more when I see you so I can detect the subtle flecks of blue and green within them


I can hold a different part of you close to me, I can run my hand along it and notice new things and feel like I know you a little better


I can take pictures of you and sometimes let you take pictures of me, just so that we get that but not show another soul


I can tell other people about you and I can mention little things, I can build up to that difficult conversation and tell them about you and me


I can tell you how much I care when I can, check on you as often as time allows and I can write some crappy poetry, mention it in that and perform it out loud

© 2017 Quinn


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I read this poem twice and both times saw myself in it when I was young. I've often wondered if I was the only one of my kind.
The title is perfect and the contents well put. Loved it.

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Quinn

3 Years Ago

Hi, thanks for the review. It is very real for me but my other half gets that so she is fine with it.. read more

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Quinn
Quinn

Glasgow, United Kingdom



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Sad AF. Dysfunctional AF. Queer AF. He/Him. Trans-guy. Bisexual. I am a first year university student in Glasgow who has been writing poetry since 2014 to varying levels of success. I also perf.. more..

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