Sixth

Yesterday we went to a water park and pizazz again. Julie came with us. I didn’t go on anything, I just walked around like a loser.

I realized yesterday that I’m never going to fit in.

If I can’t even fit in with my family, how can I do it with anyone else? I think they would be happier if I left them alone, which is what they do to me. I was in my room and I had to go pee so I went into the living area and nobody was there. I went pee and then I checked the whole house. No one but me was home and one of the Sunfire was gone.

That made me feel pretty s****y, so I went for a walk. Nick, Dad, and Bella were all having fun on the beach. Lucky them.

But it was earlier than that when I realized I could never fit in. I don’t have fun. I don’t buy things at stores.

I honestly don’t understand how I keep deluding myself into thinking people care.