The Time Lost

This is for the best friend I've ever had in this life. I lost sight of that fact for so long.

So coded, my words were, back in times past 

But you saw through them all, even the very last

My sorrow to know how much pain you'd borne

Left me gutted, lost and forlorn

I've wanted to make it up to you for years now

But the one thing I never figured out was how

I was far too scared to even begin to speak

Because I knew this lie had made me so weak

There's so much I want to say, but where do I start

Perhaps a simple I miss you, that comes from the heart

I want to make up for all our time lost

And the damaged hearts that were far too steep a cost

As always, immeasurable, are the ways you've helped me 

Even when I was so deluded to think of who I should be

That image, so skewed, still haunts me to this day

If I could change it, if there were any other way

I've tried to have no regrets, but this one thing I do

Is ever letting go of the best friend I had in you

Author's Note

I know this is a very childish rhyme scheme, but I'm just getting back into writing poetry again. Forgive me.