Slipping

Slipping

A Poem by Teddybearlee

God, I'm trying so hard to hang on
To this lifeline, to life itself
Theres so much self loathing
And disappointment, in this hell

My fingers slip from this ledge
And the downfall is inviting
What strength is left I ask
So drained from all this fighting

After 29 years of hate and misery
I thought I'd found someone that loves me
For who I am and nothing less
You pulled me ashore from sea

I believed in me, I believed in you
And wondered how this could happen
You filled in all the holes I had
The growth that I was lacking

I let myself go, and the new me took hold
To you my love, forever you swore
I became the man I never knew I could be
And you ripped him and shredded him, the soul you tore

All this did, was prove me right
I am not good enough for my wants
I see these "happy" couples everywhere
Their unintentional taunts

I'm ugly, I'm hairy, I'm not good in bed
I never say the right words it seems
My teeth aren't pearls, my stomach isn't toned
I'm a selfish a*****e, a jerk, a loser I'm deemed

I was never worthy, of your beauty
I told you you couldve been a model, from the start
I saw stars, when I looked at you
You are the most perfect piece of art

So here I am, square one again
There's no pieces for me to glue
The ground is slipping beneath my hand
I don't want to be here, without you

© 2016 Teddybearlee


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I feel your anguish. Nothing is worse than love lost. You may be writing just to express and reach out to wherever she is, but I know you're speaking to so many others who have to walk the same lonely path. I can only hope that love will return to you someday, perhaps differently, maybe the same one you write to, because that miracle happens also. Don't slip away, your voice is needed. And you could only write from this level of your humanity having experienced what you did. Thank you for trusting your heart to those who read this.

Posted 3 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Teddybearlee

3 Years Ago

Very true statement. There was a very long period of time...months after she left, where I felt so .. read more
Marianne Rose

3 Years Ago

Those of us who seem too deep for the world to understand or even tolerate at times need to find eac.. read more



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I feel your anguish. Nothing is worse than love lost. You may be writing just to express and reach out to wherever she is, but I know you're speaking to so many others who have to walk the same lonely path. I can only hope that love will return to you someday, perhaps differently, maybe the same one you write to, because that miracle happens also. Don't slip away, your voice is needed. And you could only write from this level of your humanity having experienced what you did. Thank you for trusting your heart to those who read this.

Posted 3 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Teddybearlee

3 Years Ago

Very true statement. There was a very long period of time...months after she left, where I felt so .. read more
Marianne Rose

3 Years Ago

Those of us who seem too deep for the world to understand or even tolerate at times need to find eac.. read more

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Teddybearlee
Teddybearlee

Weirton, WV



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In July 2015, my wife left me, up until that point, we had a beautiful and wonderful marriage and relationship. We had a beautiful daughter. Our relationship was healthy and happy, then one day, she.. more..

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