Closure

When it's time to let go

I know you didn't expect to receive

a letter from me;

we haven’t spoken in so long

It’s taken a while for me to write this,

Been trying since you’ve been gone

Wanting you to listen might be a lot to ask,

and I’m not trying to waste your time

But this is not about our past

It’s not about your life,

it's about mine

Started thinkin’ about the last time

everything made sense to me

When happiness wasn't an option

it was all I knew life to be

I know our lives are different now

10 years is time enough to change

But my life is at a standstill

and I can't keep living it this way

I've been waiting and waiting

for this life I have to end

Don't panic, it's not that kind of letter

but I don't want to just exist,

I want to live again

You gave me more of myself

than I've ever had before

And now that you're gone,

I'm missing me that much more

You brought out the best in me;

a self I never knew

And I lost that part of me

the second we were through

I don't wish for the past to repeat itself

I know we're both with someone else

But my heart tells me what we had was true

And I’ve been living a lie every day without you

I’m not looking for a response,

you don’t have to write a word

You having this letter is enough for me;

knowing that you’ve seen my words

There’s so much more to say

but there really is no need

I know it won’t change a thing

It’ll just make it harder to breathe

I know you have a life to get back to

and I do thank you for your time

A few minutes was all I needed

to ease my frame of mind

You take care of yourself

and I’ll try to do the same

You’ll always have my heart,

something you know

won’t ever change

I just needed you to know

what your love meant to me

How your eyes were the mirrors

that showed my true beauty

Like I said before

I’m not looking for a reply

I’ve said all that I needed to

I love you…

Goodbye

Reviews

[The Twin Arenas]

It'd be a great letter to get - an even greater one to pen.

[Arriam]

This is absolutely stunning. For a person who needed closure myself, this inspired me to take that leap and write a letter. In the way that closure is by nature, it's not true contentment, but because of this, it's enough. Thank you so impossibly much for publishing such a lovely piece.
-Arriam

[Teeya]

This piece was very therapeutic for me. It never made it directly to the person who it was intended for, but I feel in some way that he has come across it. Either way, it helped me get through, not over, but through, and I'm elated to see this piece is inspirational to you. Thanks for your comment and your time 😊

[Anaisa]

This was beautiful to read. I can relate to wanting closure and wanting to finally lay to rest old feelings but not being able to. It's hard to finally realize that you'll never be with that person and that they have moved on. That there is no chance of going back to what was but being stuck with those feelings still. Keep writing. We feel you.

[Teeya]

Thank you! For me, even if you can't speak to the person who you've ended the relationship with directly, releasing your thoughts/feelings to yourself (through poetry, song, etc) can be therapeutic in your efforts to move on. Thanks again for the comment and your time 🙂

[KCthelastboyscout]

You've written a loving and sincere goodbye.only one thing harder than knowing when its over.its saying the words

[Teeya]

Thank you for the lovely comment. And you are correct; saying the words is so much harder than just knowing it's over.

[KCthelastboyscout]

Yeah...and then the begging starts 😞