Emo(tion)

Perhaps this will help to explain the way I feel. Why being emo does not make me weak; It makes me strong.

I don't think you understand
What I do to survive.
You value joy
And nothing else.
You should know
That I would like being happy too
But what happens when the happiness runs out?
You crumble.
But I have adapted;
I survive.
I have learned
To take my pain, my misery
And use it to heat the furnace of my heart.
My heart is warm, satisfied
While yours turns fragile in the cold.
Ah, that pain is messy stuff
It never burns clean.
But when there's no more joy
What else can you burn?
Don't be fooled
I like my happiness too.
But unlike you
I value every one of my emotions.
So don't feel sorry for me
Just because I look so sad.
Because I truly enjoy this
This ability to not only put up with sadness
But to use it.
Here, give me yours
I will take it all
And grow stronger by it.

Author's Note

At first, I seriously thought that I was emo. Now, I've concluded that I am not, in fact, emo, but an emotional masochist. What this means is exactly what the poem says, I can get similar satisfaction from being sad as I can from being happy. Realizing this and taking advantage of it has helped me get rid of my depression.

Reviews

[the-One-with-the-Darkne..]

FIrst i think this is incredible. May i ask how u figured this out? and how its helped you beat depression?

[EvilAngel]

someone used to tell me that the reason god gives me so much pain is because i can handle it.i never trusted that and it just made me even sadder to think that weaker ones can get off easy.but you really inspire me.i hope you dont mind me asking..but how did that help get rid of your depression?

[Jane Doe]

i love your authors note most belive cuz im always looking happy n dressed up now n than i cant be emo i consider myself emo i dont cut myself i use to bite myself but i havent in atleast 5 months i hope to stop and
it was a beutiful poem
i enjoyed it very much and i hate downers of love they just havent found the right person jjust yet they will though

i luv it
luv ya

-abbie:)

[Persephone]

I liked this, you are a really good writer. There is a lot of feelings in this that are true for most people. This really is good. :D

[♍ Kirstin ♎]

I really like this, it seems like it has a bit of a hidden message (like it's ambiguis) but I can't quite pin how, but it is very good

[clairenicole285]

i like this poem. it has alot of feeling in it, and i like the way you use writing to make other people see how you're feeling and how much you value your emotions. great poem!

[Kanattas Atir Enomo]

nice piece. there's a wisdom behind your words, (probably because u've been through or are going through this) and u've created something that a lot of people can relate to. i know many people (including myself) who could be considered emo, some of them in a good way and some of them in a bad way. you're right that just because someone is emo doesn't mean they're weak. love the poem. keep it up:)

[deadly healer]

you know some ppl don't knw emo stands for emotional. i was emo too, but i actually did wear all black and burn myself. But i got over it and im always gonna be emo, but this time in a good way. Like the way you discribed yourself. I think this was a good write. Keep writing dude.

[Gheeneil]

The persona is somehow correct. Once happiness runs out, it is hard to live a cold world. An advantage when one already is. Also, at some point in life, anyone could be an emo. Keep writing.

[Angie Diane♥&hea..]

Good write. I can agree with everything said in this poem. I would consider myself emo as well. I used to harm and injure myself. My depression is still there though. Thanks for sharing. :)