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I killed myself in my dream last night
Because I could not do anything right.
I bled out on my bed
Underneath a pile of blankets
Even though I'd never be warm again.
In life I know all of my thoughts are sins,
And I'd try my hardest to push myself
To make one person happy,
But their smile was never enough.
In life I am jealous all the time
And involuntarily I find a way
To perpetuate a broken heart.
Although I'd love to say I was enough
I think I was too much or too little,
Especially for myself.
I'm crying myself to sleep tonight,
With thoughts of all those that I think I'll miss.
With words I kept pressed beneath my tongue
Always waiting for them to dissolve so that they
Would never be said.
Maybe as I'm fighting to stay awake
I'll write them down for the world to find.
I'm killing myself in my dream tonight
Because I can't do anything right.

Reviews

[Philip Muls]

Guilt and self blaming does not do anything to make the world a better place. Forgiving your self is key in order to progress with other human beings.

Well written.

[t.m.]

Thank you. I appreciate this.

[Jessica]

Everything OK martyr? This is worrisome

[t.m.]

I'm always fine

[Jessica]

Ok, just wondering

[t.m.]

What about with you?

[Jessica]

I'm always fine too lol

[t.m.]

You sound like a liar

[Jessica]

So do you lol

[t.m.]

Lol That's because I am. What's yourexcse?

[Jessica]

I'm actually doing ok

[t.m.]

Well that's good. I'm glad.

[The Inner Me]

Love this one. Very well written.