Watered Down Welcomes

Have not much to say 

Except 

For the incredibly distinct difference between me

And them 

How a group of people standing in a circle 

Chatting 

Can eat me alive 

Pick me apart 

Straight off the bone 

Not with words 

Nor with looks 

No malice or bad intentions 

Simply by the way 

They know I’m there 

How when I speak 

I wonder if it has left my mouth 

What it is I’m trying to say

Or has it gotten trapped in my throat 

No one would tell me 

Why would they 

Feeling like I’m floating 

Redirect to heavy conversation to keep me tied down 

Grandmas bad 

Dads good 

Thanks for asking 

Shaky hands 

Shaky laughs 

Nothing is steady 

Even these boards of wood creek 

When I shift from side to side 

Unsteady 

Last to leave the party 

Because I didn’t know how to say goodbye 

Sitting in my car 

On the lakeshore 

Happy to be alone 

With a dancing midge on the wrong side of my windshield 

Wondering how to escape 

I can relate 

I’ll roll the window down 

Usher him out 

Both of us over staying our welcome 

Reviews

[mattavelli]

Hello! :)
I get the feeling that you're over thinking life, maybe trying to hard to be nice. And maybe you wrote this to express the obscurity of it. It was a fun read. Thanks for sharing.

[The Things She Noted]

Haha definitely an overthinker! Thanks for your review! :)