Goodbye Perfect World

Goodbye Perfect World

A Poem by Thoctar

I´m Back~! Never thought you´d see me again did you? Well downturn in my life equals more poems for you, so here it is!

Goodbye Perfect World

I had a perfect world once
I had found the perfect life
I thought I could forget all that had transpired
I thought I could move on

I had become used to his new life
This life without the past
This place I never could have dreamed existed
The glass I thought was concrete

Goodbye Perfect World
You shall be mourned for eternity
Hello Sorrowful, Destroyed World
You shall kill me inside

Always worried
Always wondering
Always hearing
Always knowing

And yet the prospect of being lied to
The prospect of this all being hidden
From that which broke my world
Is scarier than this
It is losing that which created the perfect world
It is what hurts above all

I miss the perfect world already
And it has only been broken for but 24 hours
I am lost without a saviour
I am bleeding out from the pain

As I sit here in sorrow
Typing these words of my soul
It still happens
The source still exists
And there is nothing I can do about it
All of the feelings of my past returning
Killing me in one fell swoop

And as I lie here, my lifeblood weeps
Gushing out of me in a painful torrent
I know what is happening
I know what I feel
As the pains of old wash over my body
I do not regret the choices I have made
I only wish that salvation will come again
And that I can regain perfection

I walk across the plains
Of my tortured mind
Knowing every second I stay
The source of my pain is still torturing me
And the thoughts worm their way into my soul
Until I am wracked with torturous pain
I plug my ears and cover my eyes
And breathe to cut out the thoughts

Goodbye Perfect World, I enjoyed my bliss
Goodbye Perfect World, I enjoyed thy beauty
Goodbye Perfect World, I wish I had ye back
As I fall slowly into the black

© 2011 Thoctar

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Added on October 8, 2011
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New Liskeard, Northern Ontario, Canada

Interested in history, politics, ideology, really anything intelligent. Always willing to accept criticism, I can only get better. I write poems occasionally, I never saw them as good, but some friend.. more..

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