Bodies Remastered: I tried to have a good time

This is about love, lust, and how I felt being in the dating/hooking up world

Even if they wanted to stay
I didn’t stick around to find out

Sorry to disappoint,
There’s not much for you to know

Not yet,
anyway

Not anything I’d like to tell you,
nothing

But, if this is all I have to do to have a little “fun”
To feed my fuel
To make my ego smile
Why would I try harder

I’m numb and way too easy

Wish I never got in that car, in that house, in the basement, on the couch
All I am is angry now
So better watch out

I need to smoke, need a drink
Need to excuse myself from my body
That’s the only way I could stand to let them touch me

All I am is angry now

I’ve only loved twice
Only fell for it two times

First time I was naive
So was he
He liked being my lead
But I walk my own leash

I say two times a charm

Second time, it made me think twice
Though I liked his arms around me
He made me think of endless possibilities
With us, and in me

But I’m a little much

Told the first one
“I’ve always been the one who wanted to leave soundly,
But I think you’re the one who’s really drowning”

You said it’s okay that I’m lonely
But I can’t hear that from you, oh no
It seems to be the only way
But I should’ve been the one to show me

And
I’m trying to

Forget you

You were right,
time heals all

But me, I’m still not okay, no no

It’s my body, it hates you

It’s got no use now,
It’s ugly and used
and I hate you

To my body,
I’m sorry what I did to you

Why does everybody love you?

Reviews

[D. Mansfield]

powerful words, and a snapshot of pain, incredibly honest poem about how you feel. Wow. . i am blown away by this, as a male reader it almost makes me feel guilty