So Close

It's another free-verse. I just needed to get this out of my system....

Kills me inside,

the rumors,

the life,

the drama.

 

I hate it,

I hate it so much,

they say its a part of growing up,

but that doesn't change the fact that I hate it.

 

Living life,

its so much harder as a teenager,

thanks to drama,

and drama-starters.

 

Friends turn against friends,

Enemies turn into friends,

Life is complicated,

JUST BECAUSE you're growing up.

 

No one is worth your blood,

no one is worth your tears,

no one is worth your love,

no one is worth the time,

not if they dont love you.

 

High-school drama isnt fun,

its lame,

its weird,

and its POINTLESS.

 

People still like to start it though,

people think drama is interesting,

people think rumors are too,

but not when its about you.

 

Sometimes I don't see why I get up in the morning,

Just to fail,

just to cry,

just to live.

 

I dont see why I still try,

maybe because I have a little more hope left,

maybe because I'm sick of people TRYING to get on my nerves,

maybe because I have an unknown reason for being here.

 

DONT TRY IT WITH ME,

I know the tricks,

I'm not blind,

and I'm not stupid.

 

I see what you're trying to do,

and I'm not going there,

I know what you said behind my back,

I know EVERYTHING.

 

So you can just give up.

But I'm not going to,

I'm a proud fighter,

and I've never quit anything in my life.

 

What do you want to know?

What do you want from me?

My mind? My soul?

Or my precious little secrets....??

 

If you ever find this,

It's not like you'd care,

but I'm done with you,

and your little games.

 

I'm winning at YOUR game,

YOUR game,

would you have ever started this if you knew?

Knew that I would win this?

Author's Note

Ignore the capitals and lowercase, my laptop is mean...